Dreamland

Title: No One Should Know
Rating: NC-17
Genre: angst, drama, romance
Lenght: one shot
Pairing: Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki
Note: you can read it even if you haven't still read the others three parts.





"Masaki... I need you..." his gasps were lowly but those words echoed Aiba's ears so strong. "Just let me..." his empty mouth became full as Aiba started to tremble by the suddenly action of his partner.

"Sho-chan, not that..." his hands were placed on Sakurai's forehead to push him away but little by little, captivated by the pleasure he was feeling, they rushed the hair until the back of the head and his hips obligated him to move losing all the control his mind was searching unsuccessfully.

The rapper man had his partner, now he could do what he desired since the beginning. He left Aiba's length to stand up and lean his forehead against the other's one. He looked how his friend was breathing harder than when he danced for hours. Aiba's eyes were closed so Sakurai couldn't know what the tallest was thinking. His acts might be the reason to lose the person he loved but his mind was unable to concentrate in other thing but Aiba half-naked and hard in front of him waiting for the next move. Sakurai raised a hand and it touched his partner's cheek slightly as he was afraid of what the cute one might think of him. He hated his body for being so impatient, for needing his heat, his touches, his closeness; nevertheless, he loved it too. He loved how crazy and irrational he could be when it was about Aiba. No matter the amount of women he would have in front of his gaze if Aiba was not there.

*****

He was dancing so hard to fulfil his journey. Drops of sweat fell from every single part of his body as he reached the limit of his muscles. He did not want to stop, he did not want to be behind, he wanted to show of what he was made to everyone who did not believe in his dreams and achievements. But his body refused to continue and his breath became irregular.

Only rage and sadness filled his mind. He felt himself falling onto the floor being a total stupid boy who understood nothing about life yet. His clenched fist hit the floor feeling so much pain to forget the sorrows of his soul. His strength had been disappearing progressively lastly and he did not find any solution.

“Sakurai-san… are you okay?” a soft voice came from the door and his gaze reached a boy who Sho had seen before. The boy was worried, it was evident because of his expression but he did not trust him to tell the problem which was bothering his mind.

“I’m just tired” he said not wanting to explain more. “Your name is Aiba Masaki, isn’t it?” he remembered it, his name was unforgettable since that photoshoot which made together with other 2 boys more. Aiba only nodded looking down showing how shy he was. Sho stood up and walked until the boy. “Even if I’m older than you, you can call me Sho” he smiled trying to be nice and frank with Aiba. A shine appeared in Aiba’s eyes.

“Then call me Masaki, yoroshiku onegaishimasu” he bowed politely and Sho watched how the boy was educated. He liked it, he liked him.

“If you wait for me, we can go home together” Sho proposed wanting a chance to know more about the boy. He was afraid of a reject but he had to try it.

“Okay! But can other boy come with us? His name is Ninomiya Kazunari, do you know him?” Aiba said enthusiastic as Sho nodded about the name, he knew him; Ninomiya Kazunari was an introvert boy in his company a year younger who spent his hours playing with a console.

Both went to search for Ninomiya and go home. The walk was until the station where Ninomiya and Aiba had to get on a train, they lived far away from there, it was different for Sho who lived closer and he could come back walking. Sho was a bit frustrated; Ninomiya and Aiba did not stop of talking and talking while Sho was apart not catching their attention so the eldest thought it would be better like that.

*****

After a few days of happening the same, Ninomiya was ill so he did not go that day. Sho saw the chance to know more about the boy and he would do anything to fulfill his desire. Not understanding what was wrong in his mind, he was nervous. No one of them spoke a word, the walk was tense but enjoyable. Then, they reached the train station and Aiba was going to say goodbye when Sho impeded it with a question.

“May I accompany you until your house?” Sho asked determined and his eyes were intense over Aiba’s. The boy seemed lost by the sudden question but he had to answer quickly.

“If it isn’t a bother for you, I don’t mind…” Aiba said cheerful with a big smile in his face as Sho sighed relieved. Both got in the train and seated one beside other with their arms touching. Then, Aiba’s voice scared Sho. “What does Sho-chan like?”

Has he said Sho-chan?

“Sho-chan?” Sho started to laugh loud as Aiba realized what he said unconsciously.

“Gomen nasai…” he began to be flush and Sho looked him so adorable. He denied breathing again normally.

“I like…”

You…

“I like dance a lot and eat too!” both smiles became bigger and a conversation flowed so easily that they almost passed the stop. His chance to know more about him was a success and his happiness was too much noticeable.

The night was warmth and a soft wind was refreshing their bodies in the middle of the street which they were crossing slowly. They knew a lot about each other already but there was a theme that nobody touched until the moment in which Sho made the step forwards.

“Do you have a girlfriend?”

“I haven’t… I’ve never had one” the sentence was clear and Sho was happy for some unknown reason. “And you?”

“My classmates always bother me for not being interested in women, so no…” he smiled bitterly and Aiba pitied him.

“They bother me too… They always say that I’d have to fuck some girls so I’d be a truly man but… I don’t think the same…” Aiba swallowed and Sho looked him impressive. His hand wanted to rub Aiba’s arm to comfort him but his mind was so negative that he rejected the chance.

Quickly, they approached his house and Aiba said goodbye to Sho with a big smile and thanked him for his accompany. When the boy came in, Sho felt a hole inside; a painful hole.

*****

After a month talking and going home together, they became good friends but like always, Sho was apart when Ninomiya was near Aiba. He really hated that detail because he wanted the boy for him like that day. He only wished that he got other chance like that to make another step.

Like if Kami-sama had listened his prays, Ninomiya came back home earlier and Aiba was alone. Sho took advantage and accompanied Aiba until the main door of his house again. This time, they had talked a lot more than the last time and both Aiba and Sho did not want to separate yet.

“Well… See you…” Aiba spoke it if he was forcing himself, nevertheless, Sho was not going to accept it.

“Wait!” he grabbed his arm so Aiba turned around to face Sho who was tensed and serious. Sho pulled him by his arm and two pairs of lips met in a sudden kiss. Aiba pushed Sho away right after it started but he only saw desire in his friend’s eyes. “Gomen ne…” his grab was stronger and Sho kissed him again, this time longer and deeper. Even if Aiba’s family could see them or any neighbour who passed on the street, Sho found his freedom in that kiss. Only a few second of pleasure to discover another hidden world, the world he wanted to stay.

*****

“Today I want to come back alone, sorry…” Aiba excused himself from Sho again. Since that night after the kiss, Aiba was avoiding his friend anywhere anytime. Sho felt broke inside and he really did not know how to fix it. It was his fault, his impatient and selfishness acted for him.

“Masaki, stop this now, please” his voice could show his pain and rage.

“Then stop of kissing others you too” Aiba reproached in a mood which Sho had never seen. That part made his rage increased and his anger appeared to catch Aiba’s T-shirt hard and approached him as close as he could. His voice did not come out and a strange desire grew inside of his heart. His lips being so sexy again in front of him. His weakness could do nothing but taste Aiba over and over again in a kiss of which was difficult to scape.

He is perfect…

“Come to my house after the training, please” Sho begged with his heart being a knot and he saw how disturbed Aiba looked. Indeed, the boy wanted to punch him hardly but that anger was created because inside of him, he desired to accept. Nevertheless, Aiba pulled away and went outside the room with no more words.

Sho followed him until the restroom and there was only Aiba inside. Then, he might talk to him to know why he was so angry.

"Masaki... Don't stop talking to me now, please" Sho said in a whisper trying not to feel guilty. Aiba only turned around to face the boy with two intense eyes which Sho felt them like burning ices.

"How can I stay with someone who only kiss me over and over again?" even if his eyes showed that, his voice trembled for an instant for a reason which was unreachable for Sho.

"I'm sorry for this, okay?" only an apologize could be spoken until his thoughts showed the truth which Sho wanted to believe. "I'm tired of everyone making fun of me because I've never kissed or fucked with anyone. I hoped you could understand that but it's reasonable if you are disturbed with it, at the end, you want it with a girl, don't you?"

"Then, all you've done, it's to say that you did it so they would stop?" Aiba seemed odd, Sho could know that something was in his friend's mind but he would never know it so he nodded feeling pain in his chest.

He thought that lie would not be anything important, he could confess other time when both knew more about each other, when both were able to have a relationship. But what was he thinking? Aiba didn't like him, it was clear. If he did it, he would kiss him back.

But he did that...

"Okay, we can try it if this will help both..." Aiba said lowly.

“Do you agree?” Sho’s mouth could touch the floor. It was the perfect chance to take advantage, it was all a lie but how could he say no now?

*****

Outside was raining so hard, a storm was approaching the city and nobody had the guts to get out of their house, unless two boys who were running through the street totally wet. They were laughing and Sho had Aiba’s hand caught strongly with his to guide his friend until his house. There was not anyone that day so his impatience controlled him to spend the night with Aiba.

A lot of water was dropping from their clothes when they walked in the house finally. The two were laughing and Sho decided not to waste the time as he corned his friend against the wall and made sure that both were 100% sure of what they were going to do.

“If you want to continue, then kiss me” Sho muttered out of breath because of running. Aiba grabbed Sho’s T-shirt to be closer as his lips touched other’s shyly. The eldest’s hands which were leaned on the wall slipped through Aiba’s body to search the edge of the shirt and remove it from the wet torso.

“Sho-chan, shouldn’t we go to your bedroom?” Aiba looked troubled to be naked in the entrance hall of an unknown house.

“If you don’t wet the floor…” Sho smirked and Aiba nodded being sure of completing it successfully. The rapper started to walk and the boy followed him watching the design of the hallway amazed.

When they came in a room decorated by Sho, Aiba knew that it was his room. But something was bothering his mind. “I need to call my family to make them know that I will stay here” he excused himself and called them with his mobile. Even if it was a sudden event, the storm was a good option to tell so Aiba got the permission and hang up.

Sho was seated in the bed waiting for him but in the moment Aiba was beside him, the two’s minds blocked not knowing what was the next step. An awkward atmosphere appeared which nobody knew how to break. After a few minutes being in silent, Sho was tired of doing nothing and he stood up to relax a bit the ambient.

“We are wetting the bed now that I remember” he laughed tensed as Aiba stood up too quickly. The cute one was still half-naked waiting for some hint to follow as Sho’s legs could not move. Then, Aiba took a deep breath and his hand caught Sho’s shirt to remove as the rapper’s heart was racing frenetically almost getting out of his chest. Aiba’s fingertips rubbed lightly his abdominals and Sho shivered a bit catching his hand to turn around and use the wall and his body like a prison for his friend. Sho started to kiss each part of his jaw and neck leaving a few marks which would be seen latter. The youngest placed his arms around the other’s waist feeling a bit of pleasure growing inside of him. Sho closed more both bodies and started to rub them searching for more and more contact; his lust was killing his shyness until the point of forgetting the world to concentrate in hearing Aiba’s moans which were louder if he rubbed hardly the two crotches.

He was gaining time to think in the next step, what did he have to do now? The oldest boy was lost and his eyes met Aiba’s for a second to find the solution or at least some hint to continue. The desire inside of him was enough to take the risk of creating the best pleasure Aiba would feel in his life; he was ambitious, yes, but he wanted to be the first and the last who made Aiba to shout of pleasure.

His trembling hands were working on unbuckled the belt and after, the zipper to down a bit the pants and be able to insert his fingers inside of his underpants. He felt how his friend moved against his body as if he was not ready yet, nevertheless he could not stop. His legs flexed to knee and his hand set free Aiba’s half-hard member.

Sho’s mind started to have a dilemma, was he gay? He became harder and harder only seeing it in front of his mouth with the tip a bit wet already. He knew how that worked and what would be enjoyable for the other but inside of him, the desire to lick it had grown up to the limit of being capable of doing it without hesitate. And that desire made him become confused of his sexual orientation. Perhaps it was bothering him in a situation like that but it was the motor to continue their affair as well. And it was a very powerful one.

“Masaki… I need you” his gasps were lowly but those words echoed Aiba's ears so strong. "Just let me..." his empty mouth became full as Aiba started to tremble by the suddenly action of his partner.

"Sho-chan, not that..." his hands were placed on Sakurai's forehead to push him away but little by little, captivated by the pleasure he was feeling, they rushed the hair until the back of the head and his hips obligated him to move losing all the control his mind was searching unsuccessfully.

It tasted strange; it was an unexpected flavour which made Sho enjoying it in a different way from what he was expecting. His tongue licked the tip and his lips sucked it until it was completely hard. Sho was praying that Aiba were delighting it because he was doing it well but a doubt bothered his mind and made him to stand up and look his partner into his eyes to search information about his thoughts. However he had them closed to avoid any interaction with him so next to his frustration, their foreheads lean on each other and Sho tried to catch his friend’s attention rubbing his fingertips in his cheek. Aiba swallowed nervously and his eyes opened to face his shyness and his partner.

“Why did you do that? We’re only going to fuck not to do…”

“I did it because I wanted” Sho cut off his words not wanting to hear the rest of the sentence which would hurt him more than Aiba might imagine.

The cute one was out of words as he saw how Sho started to remove his pants leaving the underwear on. He could see how similar their bodies were acting because of each touch or gasp. Were both thinking the same about each other?

Before Sho caught Aiba’s pants, the latter did it quickly and his arms wrapped around his friend’s neck to bite it suddenly. Those actions made Sho to be more nervous and his ideas to continue disappeared leaving his mind in blank. Then it was when Aiba changed the rolls and he managed the situation guiding them until the bed and lying on together. At that time Sho remember the next step and what they forgot.

“Masaki, we can’t…” the oldest said in a guilty tone and Aiba widened his eyes. “We haven’t got lube and without it, we may hurt each other…” Sho brushed the other’s hair slightly as he was waiting for the end of the adventure.

“We can yet. If we come, we’ll be able to do it with our cums like lube”

“Where did you learn that?”

“That’s not important now” Aiba flushed. Sho noticed Aiba had a secret.

“Then, how will come first?” Sho said it normally but thinking in it after, it was not normal at all so he giggled a bit.

“Don’t laugh” Aiba smiled blushed. “You. I’m on top so it’s easier” the cute one did not let him to choose the order and without any complaints, Aiba removed his underwear. “Touch yourself, it will be faster”

“Eh? W-wait, why I have to do it by myself?” Sho leaned in his forearms to lift himself a bit.

“Then, why I have to do it?” Aiba said with a pout totally amazed. “Or maybe do you want me to do it?” his remarked word spoke the truth behind Sho’s excuses.

“That’s not…” he became speechless when a sudden warmth wrapped his length to go up and down slowly. He looked down and Aiba had placed his hand over it.

Why is he doing it? Maybe he wants it as much as me?

It was hard to handle. In one hand, he wanted to come hard and be fucked by Aiba, he really desired it; but in other hand, his proud was being hurt. Did not he have to be who fuck because he was a man? In any case, both were going to fuck and to be fucked, that is the deal the two agreed in the dressing room. Although like that, his proud was rejecting the idea.

“Why are you so tensing?” Aiba asked worried about if he was doing it wrong.

“Nothing…” Sho closed his feelings inside. That was not the moment to talk about his stupid proud.

“Just lose yourself” Aiba’s whisper was spoken in his ear making him to shiver and he started to feel the climax. “Call my name…” Sho widened his eyes by his request but he had wanted to do it for some time.

“M-Masaki…”it felt so good. It was totally different from only moan and gasp without sense. He did it again and he found himself completely lost under Aiba’s control. It was the freedom he was searching since he started to be a teenager.

“You see? You got it” Aiba smiled like a child with a new toy and he could not wait more so the cute one raised Sho’s legs holding them by the thighs and his fingers caught the cum Sho threw in his abdominals to spill it into his tight hole. Sho felt the pain when one finger after another came into his butt opening it for reducing the pain he might feel.

Is it what a girl sense for first time?

He was scared when Aiba placed his member’s tip on the hole but an unknown reason made him to sigh and close his eyes waiting the thrust. It was worse than he thought; the pain grew inside of him as Aiba only breathed heavily over him. Forgetting his own pain, he wanted to know.

“How is it?” Sho asked wanting to know what he was experimenting for first time but no answer came out as Aiba thrusted again hardly making Sho arched his back to handle the pain. “Masaki, how is it?” he insisted, he was forgetting a bit of the pain thank to his curiosity but if the answer did not come, he could not focus in anything more.

Sweat was dropping of their bodies when Sho’s hole got used to Aiba’s length and the cute one increased the speed. Sho was moaning loud as his arms held on Aiba’s neck but that contact broke when the youngest lifted to go faster.

“It’s like heaven…” he barely said in a gasp. Sho’s desire to fuck his friend grew as his hand went to his hard member to rub it and end sooner so he could feel it too. “Arigatou, Sho-chan…” with those grateful words, Aiba came inside him thrusting so hard that Sho thought he would break. And after a few seconds after, the rapper man came too over his hand.

Why did he say it?

Sho needed a break to recover himself after two orgasms. Aiba was leaned on his torso still gasping. He was too cute to admire, Sho found himself adoring his partner in silent. That moment being one was the answer for all the questions which filled his mind.

“It’s your turn…” Aiba’s voice echoed the room in an odd way from that cheerful he had.

Sho nodded and did the same as Aiba. After all, he learnt from his friend. During the process, he was realizing one thing and it was that he wanted to do it more times, and being exaggerated, for the rest of his life. That image of Aiba exposed feeling pleasure thank to his touches, gasping because of his lack of control, wanting more after his body reached the limit of heaven was the perfection he wanted to admire each day of his existence.

He was going to taste the flavour of the forbidden. The sheets were grabbed by Aiba’s hands. The tension grew up in seconds. The lust enfolded their minds as they became one again with a simple move of Sho’s hips.

Indeed, it was like the heaven.

His eyes and sanity were blurred facing the pleasure their bodies was handle that night. The rain did not stop and a storm approached the town with loud thunders. The electricity that the sky was experimenting was the same which connected Sho and Aiba.

Expecting that Aiba was not being so hurt by Sho’s thrusts, he did it the best he could to make it unforgivable. He knew perfectly that it would be the first and last time to spend the night with Aiba, with that cute boy who caught his heart since the first moment their eyes met in the dancing room. He loved his friend, but those feelings had to be erased. That was not his future, what everyone wanted for him, what he should do to be accepted by his family.

“Gomen ne, Masaki…” a tear was dropped but it mixed with the sweat so Aiba did not notice it. Both reached the limit together this time. The perfect timing.

“It was amazing…” Aiba smiled satisfied and embraced Sho who hid into his arms to forget his painful fate. He hated it, he did not want it, he wanted to be with Masaki, to be always by his side, but nobody would approve it and his last wish was hurting him in any way.

I’m so sorry, Masaki… But it’s the best for us…

Sho raised his head with red eyes keeping the tears inside. “Yeah, it was. Remember it like a treasure, please” his face showed a smile and Aiba returned it with all his love.

“I won’t forget it, I promise it”

“But, no one should know about it… It’s our secret, okay?” Sho said trying to talk with his best voice.

“Our secret” Aiba smiled liking the game or that was what he thought it was. Both stayed together all the night, embracing other’s body as tight as they could. Sho knew that in the morning he would have to say goodbye to who he loved so he did not sleep to enjoy each second by his side, torturing his mind about what he had to do. But at the end, he was a coward. He always was it and it would not change in one night to face his father, his family, the company and the media. He was not so strong.

His fingers rubbed lovely Aiba’s hair wishing that in the morning some miracle happened but he smiled bitterly accepting his fate, he had not another option.

“Tanks for all…” at least he would not have to live with the regret of not having said his feelings to Aiba even if he was sleeping. “I love you, Masaki…”




I should stop of writting angst, I can't stop of crying at the end ;-;
Well, this is the last part of my first fic/one shot (yes it's so long that I don't know how to call it)  which I end yei~~~~
I hope you like it and understand more the whole story. I wanted to do it since I wrote the epilogue but I hadn't time to do it >.<
Comments are welcomed as always and I will be so happy to read you ^^

Pairing: Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki; Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari (slightly)
Rating: PG-13
Lenght: one shot (2 parts)

A man in suits was walking through a long hallway belonging to one of the best companies of Japan. His hair perfectly cut and brushed, his face showing his best appearance, a briefcase in his hand which is totally care with his nails brightening, a suit which costed too much money and a pair of black shoes which their sole produced a rhythmic sound against the floor.

He was greeting all the people he saw with a smile and a slight bow. His perfect work allowed him to climb up in the company swiftly in a few years he had stayed there. His boss admired all the achievements he got by working hard and dedicating his life to his job but also to the beginning of a family.
He would get married with a perfect woman, beauty and who worked in other of the most successful companies of the industry, with a rich family and loving for everyone, his family and friends told him that he was the luckiest man of the world.
His life brightened with radiant and a perfect future was waiting for him, he worked so hard to get that and be the perfect son who his parents wished, he wanted that they would be proud of him as long as they lived.

He thought that he was happy like that, being perfect in others’ eyes, being successful in all his duties, being the person who everybody wished to be. But inside him, his heart did not beat with excitement, but only to survive.

Only he knew how he was working and working like a robot no mattering how tired he was; how he was trying to love his fiancée at who met through an omiai prepared by both parents to interconnect their business; how he was forced to smile everyone even if he did not like them or he just did not want; how he was paying the price of living the perfect life.

Nobody could imagine that he was so alone without almost true friends, that he only had 4 friends who did not leave him when he had to quit of the company of entertainment in which he did shows, dances and songs. He wanted to keep in but his parents did not allow him and forced him to join the Keio University.
In consequence, all in the company turned their back on and only 4 boys who quitted after stayed with him understanding his feelings and supporting him in all he did. It was hard to meet them when they lived far away from each other and they had their own job and even a family to take care but they were in contact and met almost one time every month.

Sakurai Sho was so excited this time because he would give them the wedding’s invitations. He hoped that they could go, even if his family couldn’t, he wouldn’t mind as much as if his friends couldn’t come.His hands were squeezing them tightly full of nerves as he waited in front the bridge where they usually went when they were so young. In the distance, he could see the oldest of the 5 of them waving his hand to greet him with a smile in his face happy to meet again.

“Satoshi-kun, nice to see you again!” the man greeted his friend with a hug feeling again that strange happiness which only appeared when he was with them.

“Nice to see you too, Sho-chan!” the 36-years-old man smiled with brightness in his eyes. Soon after, while they were chatting, they saw a cool man walking to them.

“MatsuJun!” both shouted with one voice and he took off his sunglasses and revealed a perfect smile as he greeted them. Satoshi and Jun were always so good friends since they met for first time. Sho could remember how he helped them with their homework.

Little by little, Sho started to feel alive again. How his heart was beating full of excitement and happiness wanting to spend a long day with his friends. By the other path, a 33-years-old man appeared greeting them shouting with his high-pitched voice as always.

“Ohayou, minna!” he grabbed with his both arms the necks of Sho and Jun placing himself between them, his typical smile in his face.

“You’re late! I was waiting for you in the parking” Satoshi complained pouting with his cute face to Kazunari who was looking at him lovely.

“I’m sorry, something happened in the way” Sho just stared at them realizing that nothing had changed in all these years. “Nee, is Aiba late again? I’m going to kick him if he doesn’t appear in five minutes” everyone started to laugh thanks to his complaint. Then, it was when Sho realized how much he wanted to see his best friend again, he felt full by his side because he could be himself without worrying about fulfil the others’ expectations.

Immerse in his thoughts, he did not notice how a tall man wrapped his body with his long arms and put his chin over Sho’s shoulder while their cheeks were touching each other. Sho started to smile and hit his head against his friend’s making him laugh.

“Masaki-kun!” everybody greeted him and he hugged one by one after a long time without seeing them because he had to be out of Tokyo for 4 months working hard to finish his 5^th photo album.Sho just stared at him like if he was seeing the most brilliant star in front of him. It was really fresh to have the 5 of them together again because without Masaki was different.

“Should we go for drinks?” Sho asked them and they accepted being in a good atmosphere. He was very nervous because he had to give them the invitations and he had to tell Masaki that he was going to marry his girlfriend. The rest was told 2 months ago and they asked him to tell Masaki in person, Sho did not understand why but he just accepted.

When they came in a bar seating on a table near a corner to talk relaxed drinking some beers and having fun together again. Sho did not find the chance to tell them so before he could, they talk about how the art school of Satoshi was a success; how Kazunari was directing a film by himself for his first time; how Jun had been father of a cute girl for 2^nd time showing them photos and videos; and how Masaki was on a lot of countries travelling during this 4 months no stopping anytime. Finally, they asked Sho who was trying to find the words to tell Masaki and give the invitations, he was almost sweating because of the nerves but he found his guts to do it.

“Masaki-kun, they already know it but I’ll marry my girlfriend in 2 weeks” for an instant, Aiba’s gaze darkened and his smile disappeared, but he regained his composure quickly.

“That’s so good news! Congratulations!” he patted Sho’s shoulder but inside of him, he felt his touch so cold and forced, his eyes did not bright like always and his voice was lower than before.

“So, I want to give you my wedding’s invitations” 4 letters were emerged from his briefcase and each of them had a name of his friends wrote over the paper. He distributed them to everyone around the table and the letters were opened to reveal a crimson paper with a text wrote in an elegant writing. “I hope you’ll can come because you’re busy lastly” Sho showed his fear and Satoshi and Kazunari accepted immediately. Jun asked him if he could bring his two children and Sakurai nodded wanting to meet the two beautiful creatures who had Jun so busy and happy. Masaki kept his look rereading the letter over and over again not joining the conversation as Sho was worried about his friend.

“I had to confirm it because maybe I will have to travel to Australia” Aiba said powerless but forcing a smile as Sho just nodded wanting to not push him to come even if he was the only who Sho wanted to be there.

Also, his friends did not say anything but they could feel that something was happening between them. Like always, their painful glances appeared, their words disappeared and they started to be distance. Ohno and Nino looked each other not knowing what to do while Jun was trying to start a new conversation talking of his 2 daughters.

Sho was fighting inside of him because a pain was created in his heart when Aiba left his happiness away putting a dark expression if he was feeling the worst person in this world. He wanted to embrace him tightly and ask him what was happening but he became a coward a lot of years ago when he had followed his parents’ instructions.

“Satoshi and I want to say something” Kazunari intervened in the conversation between Sho and Jun. When both looked at them, they could see how the couple had their hands caught, it was strange because they stopped to do that since they left the company and Ohmiya SK disappeared.

“The truth is that we are together for 1 year ago” the 3 exclaimed surprised. The couple could not stop from smiling and they seemed so relieved. “I wanted to tell you as soon as possible but Kazu wanted to wait because maybe our relationship would not last, so I accepted” Satoshi looked to Kazunari with happiness in his eyes and his partner started to flush, which was so rare because Kazunari was always so outgoing and they could see him like that counted times.

“Why wouldn’t your relationship last?” Sho asked interested for some reason and both made a bittersweet smile.

“You know how the society accepts a gay couple… We were so afraid that our families could even hate us. Fortunately, they accepted us perfectly and well, we can see that you too, so thank you guys” they made a slight bow and Sho just nodded realizing that they were able to fight against the fear which was produced for the society’s rejection, thing that he could not do.

Suddenly, a smile was reflected in Aiba’s face and he excused himself to go to toilet as he stood up and left the table. The 4 were worried about his behaviour but no one knew what to do because it was so unusual to see Aiba like that. Something woke up inside of Sho and he told them that he was going to talk to him to find out what was happening to him.He walked to the toilet as a fear hurt his stomach like if something was squeezing it tightly. His arm pushed the door in order to open it and he found a man leaned on the sink with his head looking down.

“Masaki-kun…” Sho called him and he looked up swiftly if he was in a trouble. Their gazes made contact and they realized how their friendship had changed.

“Why are you going to marry that woman?” his words spat from his mouth as his voice sounded broken. Sho was amazed seeing how his best friend was jealous for some reason he could not understand yet.

“Why are you asking me that?” Sakurai started to be disturbed, he did not wanted to hear the mistake he was going to do marrying that woman and even less from Aiba.

“Because you don’t love her. I really don’t know why you are trying so hard to be perfect even when you has a lot of imperfections which I…” Aiba stopped abruptly swallowing scared of talking more than he wanted.

“Which you what? I’m trying nothing, you understand nothing. Why are you like that?” Sho was attempting to hide his furious but it was in vain, this fight was killing him like a knife in his heart. He could see how Aiba was shivering and a tear fell from his right eye.

“Even if you always wanted to please everyone around you, you didn’t do it for others, you did it for yourself, for being accepted for everybody. You are the most selfish person that I could meet” he said in a whisper. Sho wanted to reply, to stop him when Masaki walked by his side to leave the toilet, to tell him the truth but his coward was dominating him, his fears appeared again destroying his mind slowly, like if it was torturing him in a maze from where he could not get out.
Sho was still fighting with himself and with his feelings. He never appraised his best friend in all these years and he realized how he needed him by his side, his smile, his voice telling that everything would be okay; but he was stupid and he lost him because he never took care of Masaki.
In his mind, there were only memories of the 2 of them playing, talking during hours, crying together, hugging each other. Nevertheless one moment was echoing in his head making him to understand Aiba’s feelings for first time.

Sho came out from the toilet and approached the table to see that Masaki was not there and his stuffs either. His 3 friends stared at him asking with their gazes.

“Where is Masaki-kun?” now he only could think in him. He could not try to explain their situation if all was not clear yet.

“He went away. He was crying and I followed him outside to ask what happened, he only shouted me and I froze, I never saw him like that” Ohno told Sho almost disturbed with both for being so stubborn and selfish.

“Sho-chan, he really hated the idea that you could marry a woman you didn’t love someday, try to give him some time to accept it” Ninomiya explained calmed but so worried for his best friend. Ohno noticed it and grabbed his hand tightly. That action annoyed so much Sho with no reason and he flew of his handles.

“I love her, okay? Stop from getting into my life” he almost shouted them and left the bar needing some fresh air. He never hated himself so much until that day but he did not stop of asking himself why he was so disturbed with his friends.

He reached his house regretfully and searched for his keys. When the door was opened, he could hear steps approaching him fast and a woman appeared in front of him. She was beautiful, with long, brown hair, 2 radiant eyes, thin and a bit shorter than him.

“Okaeri, darling!” the woman greeted him with a brilliant smile and Sho just forced one because he did not want to explain her what happened, he did not want to talk her in that moment.

“Tadaima…” he muttered to be polite but he removed his shoes and went to the bedroom wanting to sleep and forget all.

“Nee, darling… Can we have fun tonight…?” the woman seated by his side closer and her hand rubbed his thigh provoked. Sho pulled it aside being so surly.

“I told you that my family is so conservative and I don’t want it after getting married” he just excused himself with a lie like always. “I want to sleep, today was hard” he started to undress and put his pyjamas. The woman apologized and got out from the room as he laid down onto the bed. Every time he closed his eyes, Masaki appeared in front of him crying and shivering. When he got to be sleep, it became a dream and Masaki complained him over and over as he tried to catch his friend no successful.

The days passed and his nightmares did not stop any night. He tried to call him but Masaki just hung up. Then he was calling the others but Ninomiya was so angry with him since the last time that he hung him up too. Ohno talked to him coldly to find a solution but Ohno ended jaded to only hear excuses and he stopped to pick up his calls. Jun was attempting to understand his situation but like Ohno, he only heard excuses over and over so he said him directly that everyone was already tired of him.

Being alone, without a person to call, feeling worse than a shit and wanting to die in that moment, he just went to work being a mess and doing all badly. His boss was worried because it was odd in him and Sho only replied putting the wedding like an excuse. His superior took the decision to give him a week like a holiday to relax until his wedding.

Since then, he did not get out from his room, drinking a lot of alcohol and trying to forget Masaki’s image from his mind. His fiancée was worried for him, she never saw him like that and she decided to help him to stop drinking, take a shower even if she had to clean him and force Sho to eat something.

“C’mon honey, you need to be well for tomorrow” she talked softly to him.

“What happen tomorrow?” he said strangely as he searched in his mind but he was so tired that he gave up.

“Our wedding is tomorrow” she was hurt because he forgot that important date. Suddenly, a fear dag deeply into his heart and he needed his friends rather than never.

“Do you matter if I spend the night out? I have to do something so important” he stood up and looked into her brown eyes, she denied smiling and he kissed his cheek softly. “Thank you” he ran out from the room and took a shower to remove alcohol odor from his body.

He got into the car and started to drive in the middle of the night setting aside his coward for the first time in his life. His mind was racing with fears to control, feelings to put in order and words to tell as he decided to stop from being an asshole and try to fix his mistakes instead of making excuses. He could control his life finally and something was born inside of him.

He reached a block of apartments and he remembered which was the correct to ring the bell. His fears increased and he found himself asking why he was doing that. His reply was simple: I need someone.

His finger pushed the bell and he could hear a sound echoing the apartment. He waited impatiently if the time was passing so slowly. A click was produced and the door was opened to let appear a tall, thin man.

“Sho” the man called his name being so surprise and Sakurai forced himself to talk even if it was a whisper.

“I want to talk with you” his voice trembled but it came out louder enough to be heard.

“We have nothing to talk” the man went to close the door but Sho impeded it with his hands opening it full and hugging the man tightly around his neck.

“Masaki, I need you” he whispered with a knot in his throat. His eyes were crying but he did not realize it, he was only waiting his answer. Masaki was in shock but he became so weak that his arms wrapped around Sho’s waist.

“Why do you do that to me?” Masaki asked painfully feeling his heart breaking in pieces. “Your wedding is tomorrow…” he was so lost in Sho’s hug that he forgot his anger and hugged him tighter.

“Forget that. I want to spend the last night with you, like that time when we…” he was too flushed that he could not continue talking. Having asked him for a night was the craziest thing he had done in his life but it felt so good and relieved.

“What? Sho-chan, you smell like alcohol, come inside and drink water first” Masaki did not believe him because his odor but Sho was serious in his decision.

Meanwhile, both walked in the apartment and seated in the living room. Masaki brought a glass of water and gave it to Sho. “Drink” Sho drank a bit and left the glass on the table but Masaki was not satisfied. “All” Sho rolled his eyes and he drank all the water of the glass to please his friend. Aiba seated by his side no knowing what to say having forgotten his proposition.

“I was serious about spend the night together” Sho glanced him quickly to discover Aiba looking the floor between his legs.

“And you are drunk. We can’t repeat it. In that time we were young and curious, we just experimented together” his voice was bittersweet remembering how good it felt. Sho gave him a point, he was drunk but he was feeling free for first time.

“Then take it like another experiment” Sho approached Masaki wanting to place himself over him but the man just got apart suffering more than Sho thought.
“You should stop; your wedding is tomorrow…” he said but Sho approached him again no allowing him to scape and forced him to lay onto the floor as he put over him.

“Fuck the wedding. Now I only care about you” Sakurai’s lips touched his as Masaki wrapped his arms around his neck feeling so powerless to try to stop him. Both separated and the thin man denied almost laughing.

“What happens here today, it will be a mistake tomorrow, won’t it?” his words came slowly and painfully from his mouth which just kissed Sho.

“I’m sorry…” Sho hated himself a bit more when he realized that he could not cancel his wedding already. He would betray his fiancée and he would hurt his friend. He really was so selfish like Aiba said. Masaki just denied with his head and being selfish too, he kissed him hardly to continue what Sho asked.

I really loved writting it. So I hope that you'll like too ^^
It's only one part of it, but I'm not going to make it so long.
Comments to know what you think of it would be so great!
Thank you for reading >~<

Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Rating: NC-17
Lenght: One Shot

"I like to take a shower with you..."

"You're so cute and soft..."

"Who is?"

"You are so important to me..."

"What are you saying?"

"I love you..."

"Shut up!" Satoshi opened his eyes suddenly, sitting on the futon and looking around him. He just could see 4 awake people who he woke up rubbing their eyes as they asked what happened.

"Oh-chan, have you had a nightmare? Are you okay?" Sho spoke to the oldest worried with a hand resting on Satoshi's shoulder. Ohno noticed that he was still somnolent.

"Huh, yes..." he whispered feeling ashamed. The sleepy man could only think in that voice which talked to him in his dreams, that warmth and soft voice he recognized, that voice which desecrated his dreams too many times already.

"Satoshi-kun, if you want to sleep embracing someone, just ask it, don't shout in the middle of the night in order to worry us" that sarcasm from Nino which made Ohno tremble.

"Shut up..." he did a pout which his friends could see when Aiba turned on the light.

"I'm sorry but I think that we can't sleep after this" the miracle boy stretched smiling and yawning.

"I think that MatsuJun can" Sho pointed to him, the person who continued sleeping as if nothing had happened.
An idea came to Nino's mind and he told them what it was about. As nobody could sleep already, they accepted with a smirk on their faces. Aiba took a cream canister from the mini fridge and put some in a Jun's stretched hand. They waited for it to move as they ate a bit of cream. The laugher were so loud but Jun did not wake up.
Ohno stared at a little of cream on Nino's lips, so he did not notice that Aiba was putting a cream hat on top of his head. Nino and Sho joined to Aiba laughing and then it was when Ohno noticed what he was doing. He pouted wanting to punch Aiba. They just laughed louder than before so Jun disturbed woke up stamping his hand full of cream in his face when he just wanted to cover his eyes because the light. They were almost crying about the joke.

"What the fuck are you thinking of?" Jun spoke angry as they stopped to laugh. He put the cream away from his face with his clean hand as he stared at them seriously. His both hands were covered of cream, he stood up and walked to the door passing through Aiba and Nino. Before they could stop him, their faces ended with a hand cream-stained. Swiftly, he turned around and he started to laugh. Sho and Ohno were looking amused at Kazunari and Masaki who were complaining.
Satoshi stared at Sho because he did not have cream in his body, he was clean yet. The oldest took a little from the hat of his head and stained Sho's neck. Aiba started to throw a little to Nino, the guitarist put together all he could and threw half to Aiba and half to Sho who was making fun of the situation. Satoshi joined the game throwing cream to Jun who did not receive yet and Nino. It was all laugher, flying cream and 5 boys playing.
When they were tired, they decided to take a shower because the cream was even inside of their clothes.
They were in a hotel on Sapporo in order to give 3 concerts for their new album.
Every hotel was full because it was Christmas, therefore they just got 1 room to sleep. For that reason, the hotel wasn't so luxury, so it had only 1 shower.

"If we have to bath the 4 of us, we'll take too long and we've only got to sleep 2 hours more" Sho realized that detail. Jun only had cream in his face, hair and hand, he could clean himself in the sink.

"Well, I don't care to take a shower with Nino to save time" Ohno said without Nino's opinion.

"Why don't you ask me before?" Kazunari complained about his affirmation.

"Then, if Sho-chan and I take a shower together too, we'll finished so soon" Aiba did not ask Sho either but his partner only denied with his head resigned.

"Let's do that, enter you first" Nino offered them. They accept and while both were taking the shower, Jun was in the sink, it only took him 5 minutes to clean his hair correctly.

Ohno and Nino were situated on the futons. The oldest was thinking about his dream as he looked at his friend sometimes, the youngest was waiting impatiently. Satoshi stared at him asking himself why he did that, they are just friends. For years, they kept a skinship which both enjoyed to play a bit and make the fans shout. He never saw Nino like something more in his life. But he had to be honest, Kazunari had something special that he loved.

"I accept" he said suddenly.

"What?" Nino looked surprisingly.

"I want to have a relationship with you" before more explanations, Jun released from the bath and lied in his futon ready to sleep again. He deserved it, Jun was working more hours than them because he was fulfilling concert details a lot of nights. They had to stop talking but Nino seemed so happy.
Shortly after, Aiba and Sho released too so Nino and Ohno entered. Satoshi undressed with his back to Nino and got in the shower.
Ohno noticed a person behind him a moments after. The oldest concluded he was Nino.

"I'm so happy right now" Kazunari whispered in his ear. He touched his shoulder with a hand and it was going down slowly untill Ohno's butt. Then, he stopped, removed it and started to wash himself normally. Satoshi wanted to punch him tightly as he regretted being hot only with that. He could not turn around and wash himself, Nino would see it. Ohno decided that he had to get out of there to calm himself in other place. He turned rapidly and tried to dodge Kazu on the right so he made an step but someone caught him in the corner. The youngest looked him into his eyes wantonly as Ohno could not close his mouth breathing irregularly, his cheeks flushed. Nino approached to Satoshi and kissed him softly, lips against lips. The lider rested his hands on Nino's waist pulling him closer. Kazunari made a moan when both members collided as Ohno did the kiss deeper. Because the lack of breathe, they had to separate and Nino look apart flushed as his friend smiled.

"We should wash ourselves" the lider said and he caught shampoo to clean Nino's body with his hand. Satoshi rubbed his skin sweetly as Nino let him flushed but happy. He touched his arms, his chest, his back, his butt. He concentrated in his intimate part, rubbing more than necessary. Ohno pushed Nino against the wall, getting together both bodies and starting to rub the two hard members with one hand. The youngest was powerless and overwhelmed by the sensations he was feeling. He moaned lowly closing his eyes to sense it completely as Ohno gasped husky. Nino's arms were entwined in his neck as lider's free arm was resting onto the wall to lean. Satoshi began to kiss and bite his partner's neck as he came with a loud moan which Ohno quietened. He came too shortly after.

"Why did you accept?" he asked the oldest flushed.

"Because I love you" Satoshi concluded. "C'mon, get out and go sleep" he told him kissing his forehead. Nino smiled without could resist. He did what his friend told as the oldest ended with himself. Maybe his thoughts delayed him, he remembered how beautiful Nino was in his arms, how he enjoyed that precious moment, how he wanted to repeat. He was always with girls and men did not attract him, but Nino gave him an entire world which nobody gave before.

He ended and got out dressing to go to sleep finally. He found Sho drinking water. His friend as soon as he saw him caught his arm and pushed him to the bathroom again.

"Do you think we can't hear you?" raised an eyebrow.

"Hear what?" Ohno tried to not know anything.

"Satoshi-kun, being deaf with Aiba doesn't mean that I don't know recognize what I hear in the shower" he looked the oldest serious.

"Well, it's our affair..." he stared at the floor whit no idea of what to say.

"How long have you being together?" he was so directly like always.

"Well..."

FLASHBACK

After the concert, they took a shower like always, Ohno entertained himself talking with a junior so when he arrived to the bathroom, the 4 showers were occupied. Not wanting wait, he got in where Nino was and the oldest pushed him away from the jet of water. Nino embraced Ohno from behind, pressing his chest against his back, both arms around his waist and his lips touching his shoulder.

"Nino, this joke isn't funny" Ohno froze.

"I like to take a shower with you..." the youngest's hands touched his skin slowly.

"What are you doing?" he felt almost disturbed.

"You're so cute and soft..." he smiled. Ohno got more nervous.

"Nino..." he whispered.

"You are so important to me..." his voice came bittersweet.

"You too but..." Ohno did not know what it was happening.

"I love you..." Nino buried his face between Ohno's shoulder and neck. His friend opened his eyes a lot with his mind like a mess.

"Huh?" lider turned around to face each other and look into his eyes. He found an innocent sore boy with his tears almost falling. "Which love do you mean?" he wanted to make sure. He grabbed Nino by his arms.

"Love like a couple..." his voice was barely audible.

"Do you want to start a relationship with me?" Ohno was totally amazed.

"I think yes..." he tensed up.

"I don't know if I could correspond you" he was to be completely honest with his friend to not hurt him. Nino became surly and wanted to get out of Satoshi's grip.

"Forget what I said" he tried to released from the shower but Ohno stopped him.

"I didn't say you no but I'm not sure" he was a little disturbed. "I don't want to hurt you so, can I get some time to think about it?" he touched softly Nino's cheek. He just nodded almost happy as he got out of the shower.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Well..." he swallowed. "It's hard to say" he scratched the back of his head.

"Take care with the company and the fans then" he patted his shoulder and left him alone.
The company and the fans were a risk that he would not matter to overcome if it will mean thay can be together.
He came back to his futon and tried to sleep getting away his disturbed thoughts.

It was the last concert in Sapporo. They were already tired and needed a few days to relax themselves. They were really busy with Vs Arashi, Arashi Ni Shiyagare, individual programs, radio sections, a perfomance on Music Station. The tour made them more tired than usually but when they got out to the scenario and saw their fans, they could forget their tiredness because there were not other moments like those in the year.

Few minutes before to start, Jun was fixing last details as he began to hear the crowd outside.
Aiba and Sho were practicing their solo's dances which were difficult that time.
Nino was playing with his Nintendo seated on a chair, pressing its buttons frenetically. Ohno approached to him to see him playing. They stayed with no words, together and enjoying the time. Satoshi thought when they were juniors, nothing has changed since then and it made him happy.

"Why are you smiling?" Nino asked him amused.

"Nothing" he laughed a little and both walked to the group to begin the concert. Everyone breathed deeply and then, other show started. The lights turned on. The shouts went louder. The first song was sang and the concert continued like always.

After almost 3 hours, they said goodbye and entered to the backstage being so tired but happy. They went directly to the dressing room to take a shower and go to eat something with the rest. Ohno stayed cheking his phone a moment and then he took advantage to get in Nino's shower. He hugged him from the back and smiled enjoying the contact. Nino warped to face his partner as he seached for his lips. Both needed a kiss, more than anyone could believe.
Ohno held him from the waist as Kazunari shrinked his arms between their chest wanting to be hugged. The couple was smiling with no reason as they separated from the kiss.

"Why are you smiling?" Ohno asked stupidly.

"Why are you too?" Nino just played a little. Satoshi bit his lower lip as he tickled him on the waist with his hands. Nino made a loud laughter and complained as he tried to tickle Ohno too. They continued the game for a while up to they heard voices coming from outside.

"What are they doing?" Jun asked tired and disturbing.

"You don't want to know" Sho asnwered raising a bit his eyebrows.

"I want to know it" Aiba said amused surely without understand the context.

"I have to release. C'mon, hurry up" he took the towel and kissed Ohno for the last time. Lider tried to not flush as he washed quickly.

"Nino, what are you doing there?" MatsuJum wanted to know.

"Take a shower, he'll end soon" Aiba nodded and Sho kept his mind thinking. Ohno finished and start to dress himself before the attentive eyes of others.

"You can go ahead, I'll be there in a few minutes" they accept less Nino who forgot his Nintendo in the adjoining room. Satoshi caught his bag as he walked to the door when Nino appeared on the threshold.

"I can't believe you forgot your Nintendo" his friend laughed.

"I didn't, I just wanted to go with you" Satoshi looked at him surprised and a smile was formed in his lips. Nino put his arm around Ohno's shoulders and he put his arm around his waist. They were walking like that so many years that nobody cared about it but only the couple knew how different it was that time.

I hope I didn't make a lot of mistakes and the story was enjoyable. Comments would be fantastic to know your opinion. Thanks for reading! ^^