amnos_oh_mi_ya | Entries tagged with ohno satoshi/ninomiya kazunari

Title: And... do you regret it?
Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Rating: R
Lenght: chapter
Genre: angst, drama, romance
Warning: suicide

His body shivered feeling the fear of the Death in his own soul. He could not think in something more, he had to write an end; his own end. The fear which paralyzed his hand was losing against his urge to touch the boy who gave sense to his life.
No matter how it hurts… I have to end it here…

1 day before

“Ohno-san, you look tired, are you okay?” a woman in her thirties asked Ohno who was lying in his desk for a while as his anxiety was disappearing.

“I’m okay, don’t worry” his voice had a lack of life and that woman ended with goosebumps seeing how the man stood up to go to the bathroom.

His face needed to be washed with cold water in an attempt not to break against the anxiety. It had been like that for some days already and he was becoming worse. He could only feel security in his house beside Kazu; in the moment he stepped outside, his heart was crazy beating, his legs started to fail until the point of falling, he felt dizzy and his gaze blurred losing the control of his body.

Of course all of this was noticeable for everyone but Ohno was stubborn in denying he was ill. Even Jun, his best friend, asked thousands of times his condition and he always got “I’m fine” . In the other hand, Kazu was watching Ohno’s progress in a very difficult situation. He could do nothing and his concern was increasing each day passed. It was not calmed by the gentle words of Ohno, he knew the man more than that.

Nevertheless, the sorrows inside of the working man were hurting his sanity deeper than he thought.

I have to wait a bit more…

Hours before

“Satoshi-kun, can you tell me what is wrong with you?” the boss of Ohno was very angry after watching the catastrophic results of one of his mistakes in the work.

“I’m so sorry…” Ohno bowed so apologetically.

“I won’t fire you because I know you since you were a child. Now get out of my office” his shouts were hard to hold on but Ohno knew how bad he did it and his awareness would have been totally agree if his boss had fired him. He could not concentrate in his work properly and he only got scolds by everyone in the company. His mistakes had a terrible impact on the company’s results and even if his boss decided not to fire him, he did not want to be a bother either.

“Thank you for everything, but I want to resign” Ohno bowed long time waiting for his boss's answer. He did not need a job already. He only needed Nino beside him these days.

“Are you stupid?! You have one of the best jobs in this company. We gave you everything and now you want to resign?! That's how you appreciate us?!” the boss was angry and Ohno could do nothing but looking at the floor listening his hard words. “I don't know what is happening with you but I don't need a person like you in my company. Present your resignation letter tomorrow morning and pick your stuff up. You will regret it” he ended the conversation and Ohno only bowed again being emotionless in front of his boss. Instead of being affected by what he said, he was finding his peace in his life. No more pressure about his job, no more mornings waking up early, no more extra hours working. Now he would be able to spend the whole day with Kazu.

Ohno got out of the office and when his eyes found his desk between people working, Nino was there, waiting for him, for going home again together as everyday since Nino must follow Ohno. They could not talk in the whole way because the rest people walking on the street would only heard the human, but being together was enough to be happy again.

He needed to catch his hand but it would pierce Nino's and feeling it once more would break him like every time he tried unsuccessfully. His pain was growing up so fast that he started to think he was depressed. Even Nino could not fill his emptiness, nor his hugs nor his moments together. He was falling into a deep hole totally dark and empty of love for himself. His heart belonged to Nino so there were no more love to share, it was all for his boy.

In the moment they were in home, Nino could not be shut up more time. He had heard Ohno's resignation and he was so worried about his behaviour lastly. The most days passed, the most Ohno seemed weird and unhappy and no explanation came out from his mouth. He was not a detective either, he could not know what was in his mind. So the last option was asking the same questions once more.

“Satoshi... Why did you quit from your company?” Nino asked blocking Ohno's path through the hallway. Their eyes met and the tension grew up.

“I don't need it” he answered completely sure about his own words and Nino widened his eyes thinking that it was a stupid joke.

“You have to pay this house, the food, the bills. You need the money of that company” Nino said desperately but Ohno shook his head with a smile.

“I won't have to pay it more” he only said that and he sat on his chair to work in something on the laptop like every night. Nino went to the bedroom to control the impotence he was feeling due to Ohno's behaviour. Why?

Nino continued waiting for a hint to know what Ohno was planning. He was quite worried about it but Ohno asked him for trustiness and he was decided to give it to his lover. He wanted to believe that he would fix all, that he would be able to break their limit; even if Nino knew perfectly how impossible it was, his prayers were spoken each night to the moon. When he felt alone because Ohno was working, he watched the moon finding a type of peace which kept his heart with hope. The hope needed to hold on a bit more, to wait a bit more, to think in positive seeing the good side. All the moments they were able to spend together not caring if one was a ghost or a human; if they were there beside each other, the world was forgotten.

That night, seeing the moon, Nino was thinking in all the possibilities about Ohno’s plan. He could not stop his mind of running in circles around the same option. It was the worst to choose but he might be sure that Ohno would do it if he had the chance.

His eyes captivated by the special shine of the moon were lost in the infinity of the dark sky waiting for his lover to come and sleep together as always. Nino had to embrace him because Ohno usually had nightmares. Ohno, who was not scared about anything, could not sleep alone, if Nino was not there with him, his mind refused to disconnected of the world. So Nino had no other option but to sleep in his bed each night even if he did not sense of tiredness. His principal duty was to take care of Ohno not mattering what he had to do.

But that time, Ohno was late to go to bed which was unusual and Nino decided to search for him. That night was colder and darker; the boy had a presentiment of something going bad. His nerves were trying to relax themselves but a knot in his stomach was hurting him strongly. He swallowed when he did not found his partner in the living room where he was working with the laptop.

“Sato-chan…” he called Ohno lowly, his voice was barely audible because of a fear which was storming him out. No answer came back.

He searched in the veranda and in the kitchen but no one was there. Ohno usually disappeared and did not answer but that night was different, totally different, he knew it. Slowly, he approached to the bathroom, the last room to look in. His hand was almost trembling when it caught the latch and he turned it around until he heard a click. The door was opened but his mind was telling him not to look inside. He could not. His eyes found the worst option which was bothered him for days.

Ohno was there, his back was leaned on the wall and his left forearm was covered by blood as the right had a blade between his fingers. He was crying hard as the blade came inside his skin again cutting his wrist deeper.

“What are you doing?!” Nino shouted impacted by the scene. He could not move, he could do nothing as his lover was bleeding out in front of his eyes. He was just a simple ghost who could not call the ambulance or some relative to help Ohno because no one could hear him through a phone. Ohno was the one who could hear him. “Satoshi, stop now! You can't die!” Nino approached the man who realized the boy near him.

“Why are you here?” Ohno asked him in panic. “You weren’t supposed to see my death!” he tried to make a step but his legs failed and he fell on the floor. He was already so weak to walk.

“No! No, Satoshi, you don't have to die. Why?” Nino kneed beside him to caress his cheek with his hand but Ohno could only feel a simple energy rubbing his skin.

“Because of this” he said crying hardly. “Because I can't touch you, I can't be with you. Seeing you everyday is not enough for me because I can't hug you nor kiss you. I can't calm your sorrows nor dry your tears when you cry. I'm tired of talking and talking. I need more with you. I need you and not this damning life” Ohno explained sobbing as the blood did not stop.

“No, Satoshi. That's not true. Life is more important than me” Nino answered breathless. He did not need oxygen at all but he felt like dying again as his eyes looked how Ohno was killing himself and he was still.

“Life means nothing without you” the man smiled as his hand cut his another wrist to end it faster.

“No! No, fuck! Stop, Satoshi, stop, please!” Nino shouted as he was falling into his anxiety.

“I'm scared, Kazu...” Ohno cried and Nino hugged him tightly into his arms. “I want to die but I'm so scared...” his words hurt deeper Nino's soul and he hugged him to accept his decision. He was unable to stop him so it was the last thing he could do for Ohno. It was the last moment with the human alive and he was afraid that Ohno would not appear by his corpse like he did.

“Don't be scared, darling... I will be here waiting for you...” he said but no answer was spoken. Nino knew what that meant but he needed a few seconds more hugging his body. His mind was unable to accept that Ohno had died for him, for being an eternity beside him.

His arms left the corpse alone on the floor as he stood up to pray a blessing for his soul. Then, his body felt two arms embracing his torso slowly. His jaw started to tremble knowing who was. It was the first time that someone hugged him in a very long time and he could not stand more. He turned around to find the person he loved in front of his eyes, like him. His arms wrapped around his neck as he cried hard. He could feel him. It was only energy crashing but it felt so real that he thought he was living again.

“Why are you crying?” Ohno asked and his hand touched Nino's cheek to wipe his tears. He was already dead but his life seemed to start in that moment doing what he wanted to do for almost half a year already.

“You are crying too” Nino sobbed as their foreheads pressed each other's and both started to smile. If that was a dream, it was the best of all.

Ohno became tensed and his smile disappeared. “Can I...?” he asked insecure. The boy nodded and Ohno caught Nino's chin with his fingers to press his lips against his. A soft kiss started to forget all the pain they endured these last months. Now only they existed there.

Nino tilted a bit his head so the kiss could be deeper. Their bodies were able to feel the other and their arms were rubbing every inch of them. It was the heaven.

“Kazu, I still have to do one thing” Ohno said when the kiss ended. The boy did not understand what he meant but he nodded and both waited there long time. Meanwhile, they enjoyed each other as never before. Ohno's emptiness disappeared all at once. All his pain, his sorrows, his fears. Everything disappeared and there was only Nino in his mind. Loving the boy, taking care of the boy were things impossible for him until he died so he was not spending any second in vain.

Then, a sudden voice echoed in their ears.

“Ohno-kun?” Jun opened the unblocked door of the apartment and came in the house calling for his friend as the couple looked him sadly.

“I called him to find my body” Ohno suddenly explained to Nino and he gulped knowing what would happen. Meanwhile, Jun searched Ohno in every room.

“Ohno-kun, are you in the bathroom?” no one answered. “I’m going to come in” he announced worried about his friend. Nino hugged Ohno when Jun started to shout his name as his arms caught his dead body. They continued watching his friend as he called an ambulance crying the death of his friend. Then, Ohno approached him and in his ear, so closely, he talked his last words.

“I'm sorry, Jun-kun”

Ohno and Nino left the bathroom and went to the veranda to see the sunrise together. It was a cloudy day. The sun seemed sad because it did dark colours in the sky as the clouds grew up covering it in the end. It reflected in their eyes as their fingers were intertwined spending the last morning in this world.

When they came in the house, the police had arrived too and an official found the suicide note in his laptop. Jun approached to read it.

I'm sorry for what I did. Now, I'm dead and I'm really sorry for that but I can't stand more pain in my heart. It is so hard to endure. I feel like dying every day of my life and I am in a deep depression which is killing me slowly so I decided to do it faster not to suffer anymore.

I know that I'm selfish leaving you crying my lost but who am I now? Am I Ohno Satoshi? The Satoshi I was before? I don't know what I'm doing here. What I supposed to do with my life. My real reason to live is not in this world, that's why I will search for it. I will fight for it.

Mum, dad, sister, Jun. Thank you for everything. I've always had you no matter what and now I'm only giving you pain to suffer and accept. I'm really sorry for that. There aren't any night that I don't beg Kami-sama for another option but nothing else comes and I can't stand anymore.

I thought I was strong. I thought I could live a successful life. But nothing like this happened and I'm totally broken already. I can't be fixed. This is my end and I hope you will be able to accept it and don't hate me for that.

I really love all these years by your side. Thanks for all.

Ohno Satoshi

Jun ended the letter and his fist hit hard the desk crying again full of pain. Ohno cried seeing his best friend like this but if he wanted Nino, he had to sacrifice everything he had in his life.

“Satoshi” Nino called him. “Do you regret it?” he asked and Ohno smiled.

“I feel guilty about the pain I created but I don't regret it because I have you” he placed the boy between his arms to calm his awareness. Nino was the world he was searching for so long.

“Look there” he suddenly pointed to one corner and both could see the Light. They had nothing to do there already and it was time to go away. Nino started to walk but Ohno caught his hand.

“Before going there” Ohno gulped. “I love you, Kazu” he hugged him. “No matter what will happen, I love you” his feelings were exposed and his ears listened his answer.

“I love you too, Satoshi” Nino smiled kissing his lips for last time before crossing the Light.

They grabbed each other's hand tightly and they walked to the beautiful sparkle as their bodies started to be transparent until nothing of them were visible reaching their complete peace together. Their happiness.

I'm so sorry to update it 3 months after but I had no inspiration for this and as long as it's an angst I have to be full of it to write it with the emotions I want to transmit.
That's all here, I hope you like this fic which I wrote with my heart.
Thank everyone who followed it since the first day and those who joined it after too. It was a pleasure.
Wait for more soon ^~^

Current Music: From The Past ~ Timothy Michael Wynn

Title: And... do you regret it?
Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Rating: PG
Lenght: chapter
Genre: angst, drama

The morning light was beautiful that day; seeing together the sunrise felt so good, it was refreshing and they could sense their connection. The sun just appeared and some clouds were covering it sometimes making incredible shadows of different colours. It was amazing to contemplate; those moments seemed endless.

Endless like the pain they were suffering since that night when both’s feelings came to light. Ohno was so grateful with Nino for staying by his side but he knew how much it meant for Nino. Nino was searching for his peace for so long and he did not go when he got the chance.

They talked too much about it, Ohno felt so selfish and he hated himself because he begged Nino to stay, he ruined his chance. Nino always said the same “I stayed because I prefer to be with you before there” but Ohno knew that it was a lie. Nino was lying to make him feel better.

Even if they confessed their feelings to each other, no one knew what they were. Being together was enough but their doubt of being more was there, inside of them, bothering their minds each second. Nevertheless, a relationship between a human and a ghost would be impossible. Even if Nino could sometimes touch Ohno, Ohno could not touch the boy. He was so powerless and his heart was in a lot of pain when he thought in that. Maybe words might help but gestures meant another world which they could not reach.

That morning, on the veranda, they were watching the sunrise as all the nights they spent talking. This time no word was spoken, only they needed their presence to relax; they only needed each other to live, Nino was realizing that day after day observing Ohno’s behaviour.

“How do you feel when you are dying?” Ohno’s voice came out slowly, totally absorbed with the sunrise so he could not see Nino’s reaction.

“Why do you ask me that?”

“I just want to know, you’ve never told me about why you killed yourself, I’m curious” Ohno turned his head to see the beautiful boy in front of him with an odd gaze.

“There are things that you should not ask, Sato-chan” Nino became tense but he continued before of Ohno. “It was winter, it was snowing and my mum was with me because we couldn’t go outside. She was full of problems with money when she decided to live alone with me because my father punched her sometimes. I remember how I bothered her, I remember what she always said me “you are an useless person”; “you are only a stupid and problematic kid”. Even if I tried to help her with money, to support her, to be a better son; she hated me, I broke his life and I couldn’t stand more. That day we got an argument and she shouted me “hopefully you were dead”…” Nino stopped a moment controlling his feelings; it was hard to tell for first time since he died. “I came to the bathroom, I did not block the door; I remember how I wanted to prove her words. I found a blade and it sensed so good…” Nino started to cry blaming himself while Ohno was keeping his tears inside. “The blood began to get out and it fell on the floor, there was so much and I cut my wrist deeper and deeper. I know that she was listening how I was crying but she did not come and I cut my other wrist. My body lost all his strength and I had to seat on the floor covered with my blood. My eyes closed and when I could open them again, I was seeing my corpse. After one hour seeing myself there totally shocked, my mum came in and she started to scream while she embraced my body…” Nino swallowed to stop a sob. “I can forget what she said me… “it’s my fault, I didn’t want this, you’re my whole life, I love you, don’t leave me…”. After some time, I discovered my mum’s problems completely, she was alcoholic, she went to night clubs to sell her body, she needed me more than I needed her and I failed her because of my selfishness…” Nino told Ohno slowly, trying to find the correct words. After that, he felt relieved, that story, those thoughts were bothering him for years.

“Do you regret it?” Ohno asked him again for some reason, even if the first time Nino answered no, his words did not tell him the same.

“Of course I regret it… When she ran to call an ambulance, I followed her and saw a cake on the table. It was written “I’m sorry, Kazu” on top of it. She went to buy it with that weather only for me; that was why she couldn’t hear me, I was alone” Nino broke again when his mind remembered that part. He was seeing how Ohno was crying and he felt the worst guilty ever. “If I didn’t kill myself, my mum would be better besides me and I could be by your side…” Ohno felt his world crashing into pieces when his ears heard Nino’s confession. His voice was a sob constantly being unable to talk. He desired to say him that it was not his fault, that all was already alright, but his mental strength did not allowed himself to support his friend.

“Kazu, I…” he only spoke those words.

“What?” Nino giggled bitterly wanting to stop this painful situation.

“I need to go to work, sorry…” he turned around and walked in the room leaving a boy totally confused.

Even if I opened my heart to him, he goes away…

Ohno was working hard on his computer, he tried to concentrate as better as possible but his mind was in other affairs. He needed a break so a coffee was not a bad idea.

He was in the rooftop when Jun appeared behind him. “Ohno-kun, would you like to meet this night?” Jun was his best friend since he joined the company 4 years ago; they went together almost every week to drink and have fun in clubs. That stopped when Ohno met Nino.

“I’m sorry, I’m busy…” Ohno lied; he only wanted to be in home with Nino.

“Are you okay?” Jun patted his shoulder. “You are strange since you moved to that house”

“I’m fine, I’m just maturing so much Jun-kun” he giggled like Jun did but his friend knew perfectly that something was wrong.

When Ohno looked the building again instead of the view, he saw Nino in the door and his nerves exploded inside of him. “Jun-kun, see you later…” he started to run leaving his friend there amazed.

Ohno entered the building and Nino was going down the stairs. He followed the boy until the bathroom where Nino stopped and faced Ohno.

“What are you doing here?” Ohno had to talk lowly; if somebody discovered him talking to “no one”, they would think that he was crazy.

“I can get out of home” Nino said simply and a smile grew in his face. Ohno frowned; that was strange, Nino could not get outside, his energy started to be weak and he had to stay close to the apartment. “Before I could reach the light, I was connected with the house because I died there; nevertheless, when I overcame myself, I had no reason to stay, that’s why I can be here today, because I found other reason” Nino blushed a bit as he felt shy showing his weakness.

“You have to stay close to that reason, haven’t you?” Ohno bit his lower lip trying to accept what Nino wanted to show.

“Closer as never” Nino’s smile became bigger and his eyes went down full of embarrassment. Ohno scratched the back of his neck feeling happy for being his reason. Even if his thoughts had been so negative lastly, that confession made him happy and he felt like a teenager smiling as a fool who liked someone.

Suddenly, when his eyes were looking the beautiful sink of the bathroom and the hand soap which was on it, the presence approached him noticing his energy closer and closer, embracing him as all the nights when he could not sleep. He left his human body for a second merging with the other’s soul. His eyelids were thin, relaxed lines as his senses became one only to feel his partner completely.

There were two hands in his back going up and down slowly making him to shiver slightly; he could feel a body against his, the same height, soft and thin; but he really knew what sensing meant when two lips kissed his neck slenderly. Then, a head was rested in his shoulder.

“I’d wish to be like that forever…” Nino spoke not realizing his words but even if Nino did not care at all, it made a deep hole in Ohno’s heart. He wished it too, and he was searching for a solution. He needed a solution.

In home again, watching his laptop, he was looking for some information. The last days, he was working so hard to find his answers. His eyes were red and his eye bags were so evident in his pale face, his skin was used to be darker but he stayed in home the most part of his time since 2 months.

Nino was glancing to him so worried because of his health. The boy wanted to take care of Ohno but something inside of him, a voice maybe, his awareness or even his shyness stopped him to make the step forwards and talk about his behaviour. Ohno had been distanced from the boy since that night but Nino could feel him closer at the same time. In other words, both had more confident with each other but their communication deteriorated noticeably.

Nino felt alone in moments like that, the silent was a prison and his mind could not stop thinking even a second. He wanted his attention, maybe it was only selfishness by his part but he did not stay in this world to contemplate how the person he loved kept himself in that way.

He moved his legs and the steps against the floor were hesitated, his fear of a reject increased in his soul but he needed to make sure that Ohno still wanted to be beside him. With the man’s back in front of him, his arms raised to slip his hands over Ohno’s shoulders. His fingers touched Ohno’s chest and Nino embraced him as tight as he could resting his forehead in the man’s hair.

Ohno stayed still, he was surprised about the boy’s hug; nevertheless, a sense of relief grew inside of his heart. Ohno sighed to erase or at least hide his painful thoughts as the boy closed his eyes strongly keeping his tears inside them.

I have to be strong… I have to be strong for Satoshi…

No one spoke a word while they enjoyed the connection of their souls. That was the power which made them to continue fighting. Ohno only had Nino and Nino only had Ohno. Their world was not allowed for anyone more because nobody could understand the meaning of their love. They only could trust each other. They only were supported by each other.

“Kazu…” his whisper echoed the room. “Are you okay?” Ohno asked a bit worried about his sudden hug.

“Who is not okay here is you” Nino said bravely wanting to know the truth behind his coldness.

“I’m fine, maybe I’m working more lastly but it’s not important” Ohno faked a smile and Nino exploded not controlling what he said.

“Can you stop lying me?” Nino made a step backwards and looked Ohno’s face when the man turned around on his chair. “You are so odd and you don’t talk to me, I’m worried about you. I don’t know what to do, Sato…” his head was looking the floor and his tears fell finally. Ohno felt guilty, it was his fault, that was clear but, how could he tell Nino what he was planning?

“Do you trust me?” Ohno stood up to face Nino as the boy raised his gaze with blamed eyes as he nodded. “Then, just wait. I’m fixing our fate” his voice was relaxed. His face had a smile. His eyes showed love.

I trust you, Satoshi… But what are you going to do…?

I'm sorry to update it so lately but I'm full of final exams >-<
Even if I wrote it a bit fast, I hope that it is well-written and you enjoy it.
I almost sure that the next chapter may be the last so I will give my best to create the best ending!
Thanks for reading and comments are welcomed to know your opinion! ^^

Current Music: Japanese traditional music~

Title: And... do you regret it?
Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Rating: PG-13
Lenght: chapter
Genre: angst, drama

Other drink. More alcohol to drink again. Why did he need it? Why did he end like this?

One week after of the argument with Nino, Ohno was so broken and lost. He did not know why but a piece of his heart stopped of being alive. He tried of forgetting him, he really tried with all his strength but he was out of control.

Why?

He wondered why Ninomiya was so important in his life after only 2 months. 2 months full of confessions, nights spent by talking during hours, funny moments together, but it was empty of loneliness. What he had felt his entire life disappeared because of Ninomiya. Nevertheless, it had returned deeper in his soul. It was unhandled for him; he needed a way to get out of that shit and feel better even if it would be only for a few hours.

He was at a night bar full of wonderful women who stared at him with dirty intentions in mind. Getting one to spend the night was so easy and his insanity controlled him completely. A little flirt and his irresistible smile and he had a lady following him to his house.

They started to kiss in the elevator; the lust provoked by the alcohol was clouding his little reason and he took the woman at his room directly undressing her.

Even if he did not want it, if he did not enjoy it, if he did not desire it, his mind was screaming to get free. He was so rude with her but his body could not stop; his eyes were closed as he sensed a so-well-known presence behind him. He knew that Ninomiya did not leave the house and he was seeing what Ohno was doing but he was not able to control himself to think coldly. He reached the climax and stood up almost immediately.

“I’m going to take a shower, when I get out, I don’t want to see you here anymore” he said with a husky voice, so heartless not caring in the woman who was watching him with a hateful look. Ohno walked until the bathroom and cleaned his body wanting to erase all of that woman, he accepted to do it but he was hating himself for that. He was not like that type of guy who only fucked with a strange each night and he did not want to know anything more after. Nevertheless, sex was the only option to distress his body.

It was like this since the last words which Ninomiya said to him that night. Just one week without him and he became to be the same unhappy person as always. When he moved, he promised himself to change it and thanks to Ninomiya, he was overcoming the sadness. He missed it, he missed the boy, he missed the two months in which he could feel what happiness is.

He hit hard the wall of the shower with his fist as his eyes shed the painful tears that he was saving since then. His head leaned on his forearm which was placed on the wall as he cried feeling the worst pain ever.

Why did he say me that?

Do I mean nothing for him?

Was I the only who felt something for the other?

It did not matter how many times he wondered it, he felt more powerless than before. No answer came to help him and his sorrows were storming him out without a clear path to follow. He was frustrated; even if Ninomiya told him to forget their friendship, the boy did not get out of the house.

Ohno decided to end his shower and sleep until the midday of the next day. His body was covered with only an underwear and his legs walked to the bed in which the woman continued there.

“Didn’t you hear me? Get out of here, please” Ohno said so annoyed because of the stubborn woman. She refused to go.

“You can’t fuck me to kick me out after” she shouted to him seemed so angry and Ohno clicked his tongue. When he was going to reply, a voice behind him appeared suddenly.

“Satoshi, what is going on here?” Ohno turned around and his eyes met one’s which he recognized so well. Ninomiya was in front of him, totally opaque and the boy blinked an eye. Ohno did not need to act to seem surprised.

“Are you gay?” the woman shouted again. “I better go” she stood up and walked through the two men who could not look at other place. Only when Satoshi heard the main door closed, he dared to ask.

“Kazu… Why…?”

“Shut up, why are you fucking with strangers?” his jealousy was evident and Ohno understood a lot of questions.

“Why are you so opaque? Maybe it’s because you are fucking jealous?” Ohno knew that saying those replies, he would not win anything but he was tired of the boy’s odd game.

“And if I’m really jealous, what?” Ninomiya stared at him so deeply and Satoshi swallowed feeling helpless in front of him. He did not answer. “I don’t want any women close to you” he was being so possessive but inside of him, he did not care about that. He wanted to be the first person to Ohno.

“Are you in love with me?” Satoshi took the risk to uncover the truth.

“Is something bad?” he was challenging with his gaze.

“Answer properly”

“Yes” Ohno wanted to laugh for an instant but his mind was shocked. He opted for a simple nod and he walked until the bed to lie down on it trying to organize his mind; his head was in pain, maybe because of the alcohol or Nino’s confession.

Ninomiya was upset; he expected a different reaction by Ohno. Even if it would be bad, he wanted to hear what Ohno thought of that instead of silent. Ohno’s silent; his precious silent which brought him a lot of calm sometimes was annoying him until the limit of his nerves. He confessed his feelings to someone who did not express some show of interest at all.

“Thank you for saving me from that woman” the man said in a low voice and he covered his body with the sheets. He did not want to show his face flushed. Ninomiya stayed in front of the bed being unable to speak. A knot in his throat was drowning him feeling so much pain in his soul.

“It was easy” the boy said sweetly and he raised his head with a smile in his face. Ohno saw it, he saw that fake smile which hurt him because it meant that the boy did not trust him to say that he wanted a reply. He could see how Nino wanted to cry but his eyes did not shed any tear.

“Is lying to me easy too?” Ohno seated in the bed and his sleepy eyes stared at the boy who put down his painful face. “Kazunari, is it easy?”

“No… It’s not at all…” his shoulders trembled full of rage as he searched his courage. “Can you answer me?” he said destroying the bit of strength he had already.

“How can I say that maybe I’m in love with you too?” Ninomiya opened his eyes wildly feeling no floor under his feet. “How can I accept that I’m unable to touch you, that I can’t hug you, that I can’t have a normal life by your side? Tell me how and I will be yours, because I feel broken every time that I remember how my hand pierced you” Ohno swallowed keeping a sob in his throat. He thought that saying it would be easier than it was.

Nevertheless, Ninomiya approached the bed and he kneed on it hesitated to do what he wanted. “Just let me do” he said and his arms were placed around Ohno’s neck, his face was hidden smelling his fragrance combined with the shampoo while his body was so close against Ohno’s.

“Kazu…” he was surprised because of his hug but suddenly something inside of him felt so good. Instead of the last time, he was sensing Nino touching him; as if he was really hugging him. He tried to embrace him back but when he approached his arms, they pierced the silhouette again. Ohno felt so powerless and his chest hurt as nothing similar.

“Thanks for making me love again” the boy said as the owner could know how Nino was crying even if his tears were not real. “Now, I can go” Nino smiled to his friend and he saw the Light when his head was turned to look around. It was beautiful and it had a strength which was pulling him to go there. When Nino wanted to contemplate Ohno’s beautiful face again, he found a terrified one.

“Go where?” he muttered full of scare.

“I’m seeing the Light finally” Nino smiled and Ohno denied.

“Impossible, you can’t go now, you can’t leave me alone now” Ohno started to be in panic as he saw his friend disappearing. Even if Nino transmitted a totally relaxed sense while he was smiling, Ohno refused to accept it. “Kazu, don’t do this to me, please, stay with me” his tears fell down on his cheeks and Nino began to understand the meaning of Ohno’s words. “I can’t live with you… Kazu, please…” he cried desperately as the boy was almost disappeared.

“Satoshi, I can’t keep myself in this world longer…” his face changed and his smiled faded away. His anxiety returned to him as those days when he could not find the Light and now that he had it in front of him, he did not go there. Nino wanted to stay by his side, he realized how Ohno needed him and he could not leave him alone, after these few months together he was all he had.

Meanwhile, its strength was pulling him in as Ohno did not sense his friend’s presence anymore. He felt dead, his heart did not want to beat anymore and his breath was harsh.

Have I lost him forever?

His mind could not assimilate that Ninomiya was not there anymore. He was alone again. He had no one. He had nothing. His happiness, his desire to live faded away with the boy.

Kazu, I need you…

Nino was his lifesaver. He was his all. He was realizing it, that annoyed boy who appeared in front of him became his reason to live a day more. He remembered it, how interesting Nino seemed that night, how disturbed he was because of that, but how his desire of knowing the boy increased so swiftly.

You can’t die now…

His eyes were irritated of crying and his hand started to rub them hardly. He stayed with his eyes closed for a few moments and when he could see again, a silhouette was in front of him.

“Even if I thought that I was ready, I have to do one more thing here” the boy smiled and Ohno covered his face crying so hard. His sobs were loud but he did not care, Kazu, his Kazu, was by his side and only that was important. “You need to sleep, I promised you that I won’t go away” Nino said sweetly and he calmed his friend to make him rest.

Ohno laid down on the bed trying to sleep as he was feeling Nino behind him. Nino embraced the man to make him know that he wasn’t going to anywhere. The boy had a dark expression in his face when Ohno could not see him.

Did I do it well? Did I have to come back?

I don't know why I don't like how this chapter is but I hope you enjoy it!
Maybe too much drama? Cliché? Is it bad explained? I have to stop of being so strict with myself XD
Because of that, tell me if you liked it or not, maybe I can resolve my internal doubts XD
Thanks for reading!

Current Music: Liar ~ One Ok Rock

Title: And... do you regret it?
Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Rating: PG
Lenght: chapter
Genre: angst, drama

Ohno had a lot of work to do opening boxes and cleaning the house. He wanted to do it slowly but his desire to see the house complete was so strong in him. Even if he tried so hard to give his best, he could only finish the bedroom.

He liked how it ended: the walls were white combining with the furniture, a big bed with a beautiful painting drawn by him on the top, a cream wardrobe aside of the windows with large and soft curtains and in the other side, there was an old desk with an amount of books stacked there and in the library situated in front of the bed.

When he felt proud of himself, he wanted to show it to some people but he had not anyone to see his room. In this case, the loneliness was hard to control and his happiness faded out. His long eyelashes blinked not to let a tear fall as he left the room. He missed a friend, his mother, someone to talk for a while, even if he could call them in the phone, it was not the same.

He reached the living room and seated in the sofa trying to control his feelings. His head turned to a side as he found the ghost looking at him interested for some reason.

“You again?” Ohno frowned and started to ignore him. At the end, it was not a nightmare, he was real.

“Well, I thought you needed to talk but if I bother you, I’m leaving…” the boy provoked Ohno so easily that he was amazed. Ninomiya smiled when Ohno stopped him and accepted to talk a while. Maybe it could seem stupid to do but there was only Ninomiya to listen him and he wanted to take advantage of that chance. Little by little, both started to talk about meaningless things which they enjoyed, the time spent together filled up their emptiness as they began to know more about each other.

Ohno did not feel talking with a ghost, Ninomiya could be as human as he with feelings, likes and worries, only a real body was the different between them.

The boy was a help to handle his loneliness and they talked each day more becoming friends in short time. Ohno did sometimes not talk so much but he could feel how someone was there with him at least. That was comforting because when he needed some type of advice, Nino was so good in thinking one.

In other hand, having the ghost near was funny too, Ninomiya liked to scare him a lot of times and see how Ohno wanted to punch him as he was unable to do it. They ended laughing like if they had always been together, if they know each other for a long time, if they had a special connection.

During that time, Ohno thought that he was a little crazy but he fixed it with time. It was even relaxing to be with Ninomiya chatting a bit or laughing by his side of something stupid. He liked it, he really liked not knowing the reason. When he returned to home, a greeted was always said to the ghost and a reply was given to him. Deep in his heart, something was glad to have met the boy.

He was not sure if the ghost thought the same about him but his mind realized that Ninomiya was kinder than the first night he spent there. Ninomiya was a good boy, so distrustful but so nice and funny. Ohno really liked that part of him because when he had a bad day, cheering him up was easy for the boy who did it a lot of times without a request by Ohno’s part.

After thinking it a lot of times, Ohno –who never doubted to do something- found his courage to ask the boy a question which was bothering him for the 2 months he had been living there.

“Nino” he called him like the boy told him once. “Why do you always support me if you don’t know me at all?” their eyes met as they were sitting on the floor in front of each other. Nino pouted a little as he was thinking in it and Ohno started to be impatient.

“I’m bored” he answered simply and his face revealed no expression to figure out. Ohno could hardly trust his words. How can a person help other so much because he is bored? Even if his face said nothing, his eyes reflected a strange brightness which made Ohno more curious.

“And can’t it be that you don’t like to see me bad?” Ohno analysed his reaction and behaviour and it was like he predicted. Nino looked away and his body was clearer to see because he was accumulating too much energy as Nino told him once –“I haven’t a heart to feel my emotions, but my energy defines how I am in that moment, if I’m transparent means that I’m relaxed, no feelings are inside me, but if I’m more opaque than unusual means that I’m feeling something so strong”-. Ohno was amazed because Nino could be misunderstanding with a real person.

“That’s not true” he only spoke those words which sounded so coldly and regret appeared inside of Ohno but it did not stop him to provoke the boy until finding the truth.

“And then why are you so opaque now?” he was sure that Nino was hiding something related with him and he wanted to know it at all costs.

“Can you shut up?!” the boy shouted and Ohno could feel a fear running through his veins as the lights started to blink frenetically. The owner looked around him not knowing what to do and when his gaze returned to Nino, he was not there. After a few seconds of that, the lights settled finally but he could feel the boy near, he was nearer than he thought because the boy was watching him since a corner until he could calm himself.

Ohno’s words hurt him for some reason, the truth that Nino did not want to accept was spoken and his mind needed to rethink why he was like that if he had always been so cold and ruthless with others not caring about their feelings. The man could read what he was thinking and Nino could not let it happen because otherwise he would be naked in front of someone who had the power to hurt him whenever he wanted.

How was he so carefree with Ohno? He committed a mistake and there was only one option to go back when both meant nothing for each other, or at least for him. It would hurt, he knew it but that was the price he had to pay for being a friend with a human.

Days after, Nino did not appear around Ohno and the man’s loneliness increased a lot making his time a torture which never ended. Sometimes he walked in the house calling his name but no one replied. His friend vanished since the last time and his regrets were killing his awareness slowly.

Why did it hurt him so much if Nino was only a ghost? Ohno had to admit that it did not matter what Nino was, the boy brought him a good memories and moments to remember in a future. But he got used to find him when he returned of work or when he woke up. Thinking it coldly, Nino was always by his side watching what he was doing or waiting for him. Ohno realized that he was someone so important to Nino and he hurt him with his stupid, selfish questions. He needed to fix it because he could feel the boy by his side but no more than a sense was there.

“Nino, I want to fix what I said the other day, I’m sorry for that, I talked too much and I’m sure I hurt you. I’m really sorry, can you come back?” he started to talk in the middle of the room and he did not care how crazy he could seem, he wanted Nino back. He waited talking more and more, he knew that the boy was there so he had to use that chance. “I want you back because I’m lonely without you, please” even if Ohno did not realized what he said, Nino was totally amazed.

“You are so selfish” a whisper was told to Ohno in his ear, a fear was blocked by a sense of relieve for talking again with him. “You want me only not to feel lonely…” his voice echoed his ears and a shiver travelled his spine.

“That’s not true, I’m missing you” his sincerity was uncovered abruptly and Nino made himself visible. Ohno approached the boy but Nino made a step backwards.

“How can you miss a ghost?” his eyes were full of pain and Ohno could notice how broke the boy was. A huge desire to hug him grew inside of him but it would be useless, his body would pierce Nino’s.

“Because you became someone important in my life, you are my friend” Nino’s jaw was trembling controlling his desire to cry, after so many years feeling nothing, Ohno was making that Nino started to trust someone finally.

“Satoshi…” his name was almost inaudible and Ohno stepped forwards to try what he wanted to do. His hand was raised and he attempted to touch his cheek. The hand pierced the silhouette like if he was only a hologram and Ohno felt a pain in his heart, so hard and unknown. He was sure about what was going to happen but until he did not check it like truthiness, his mind could not assimilate it as such. “I’m a ghost, please don’t forget it” Ninomiya smiled trying to only remember the part where Ohno wanted to touch him and not in which the life-death limits took part. His body became invisible again; he was sure that Ohno did not need a stupid boy by his side to be happy. Even if that apartment had been his house for so long, it was time to leave it and pass the Light. But as always, it did not matter how much he desired it, he could not find it.

Ninomiya was hearing his friend shouting his name to came back and talk. Ohno did not give up. He shouted again and again his name “Kazunari!” but the boy rejected the option to stay longer there. Ninomiya had never felt so much pain in his chest even when he had a real heart. He wondered why he was feeling that, that pain which appeared inside him every time Ohno was by his side. It was horrible to feel; more horrible than living his last life.

“Why can’t you shut up and forget me?!” Ninomiya appeared suddenly shouting Ohno who was still in the centre of the room watching how the boy was totally opaque.

“Do you really want that?” a tear fell.

“Being with you is the worst thing which could happen to me” a heart was broken.

“Understood”

How could I say that?

I hope that this chapter is more interested than the first, now they started to know each other nee?
Like always, comments are welcomed!
Thanks for reading ^^

Current Music: Carry On ~ Arashi

Title: And... do you regret it?
Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Rating: PG
Lenght: chapter
Genre: angst, drama

Bit by bit, the room started to be full of boxes with stuffs inside of them. Their weights were difficult to move but between two people, the duty was easier. Sometimes the furniture could bother them to pass with the boxes in their arms as they laughed because of the strange poses they had to make to pass.
After a lot of hours working, the move was complete and the two boys who did it where exhausted while their bodies were resting on the sofa. A few drinks after, the owner’s friend decided to come back to his house.

“Thank you so much, Jun-kun. You have helped me a lot” his face expressed a tired, grateful smile. His friend denied.

“You’re welcome, it was funny” Jun’s hand patted his shoulder to say goodbye and the owner closed the door as he sighed wanting to sleep urgently.

He went to the bedroom and put the futon on the floor, but when he started to undress, he realized how sweat he was; a shower was required. He was alone so he could walk naked through the house. Before he came in the shower, he looked himself in the mirror and rubbed his hair with both hands closing his eyes. When he looked again, a shadow ran behind him.

At first time, he was afraid but his mind maybe was so tired that it could already see even a flying elephant. He focused in cleaning his body with the hot water which was falling over him. He rubbed his skin slowly with a bit of shampoo and when his hands started with the hair, he felt somebody behind him so clearly. His throat swallowed the amount of saliva which his dry mouth could produce. His feet moved to turn around and see what he had staring at his back. His gaze looked afraid to see what he did not want to see and he found nothing.
His mind was so tired of all and he ended in the shower to walk out and dry his body up. His hair was still wet but that was not important, he needed to rest and sleep for many consecutive hours. But when he lied down on the futon, he could not reach the sleepiness; his eyes were so open and the darkness was so unrelaxed that night. Maybe it was because of first night, he thought, but inside of him, he was not sure. He never felt something like what he lived in the bathroom. He would not forget that fear filing his soul for a few seconds in which he turned around to face that presence.

He took the decision to stand up and drink some water, maybe it would help him to calm his temples. Meanwhile, he thought in what it could be. When he talked with the house’s seller, this man did not speak about some ghost wandering around, although if he would have done it, nobody had wanted to live there.
Even so, he was convinced about he was with some spirit towards him. His deeper thoughts were praying that it was only his stupidities of always but his rational part sensed someone more by his side, it was so annoying and desperate.

Finally, when he walked in the living room to catch a book to read, he saw it, he saw a boy, a younger boy looking at him with amused expression, but for some reason, pale and lifeless. His heart stopped a second and his voice wanted to get out like a scream. He pointed the presence with a finger and the presence stared at him unbelievable.

“It can’t be! Can you see me?!” the presence ran until the man and the owner made a few steps backwards.

“Who are you?!” he was shivering and his mind was blocked full of fear.

“I’m Ninomiya Kazunari, don’t be afraid, I won’t hurt you” he rose a hand like a promise as his face continued totally amused. “And your name is…?

“Oh-Ohno Satoshi” his voice trembled a little feeling the panic through his veins but he did not move. He stayed still facing that presence who called himself Kazunari.

"I can't believe that you can see me..." the presence sighed relieved and seated on the sofa like if he was a real person in his house. "I was bored with nobody to talk" he pouted and for a second, Ohno saw him even cute. "Sit with me and talk for a while, please" Kazunari was arrogant and annoyed. Ohno was irritated rather than scared and that was unusual.

"I won't talk with a ghost, that's the least that I need today" Ohno closed his eyes frustration. How had he ended living with a ghost? Even if he wanted to tell Jun, his best friend, he wouldn't believe him. It was so surrealistic that he opted to go to the bed and discover if that entire crazy situation was a nightmare.

When he opened his eyes again, the ghost was not there anymore. A shiver went up through his spine and he started to see the room darker. Ohno was telling himself mentally that all was unreal but the fear was squeezing his soul. And then it was when a whisper was spoken in his ear.

"What a pity, Satoshi-kun..." Ohno swallowed as his eyes rolled frenetically around the room to find the ghost but he could not see him. The lights started to blink and he tried to breathe deeply calming his mind to think coldly. It was clear that the ghost was playing with him, Ohno had to give him what he wanted.

"Okay, okay, I'll talk with you" Ohno seated on the sofa seemed calmed and the ghost appeared again faster than a light.

"Good boy" Kazunari smiled and Ohno tried not to punch him hard, among other things because his hand would touch nothing and he would seem so stupid.

Ohno waited for something more, for questions to answer, for more paranormal activities but nothing came. He turned his head to see Kazunari and he did not feel fear, he looked at the ghost analysing his face, his gaze, his hair, his complexion. Ohno found a scared boy, he knew it because his eyes were looking for something constantly but nothing was found. A sense of pity was created inside of him and a strange interest made him to talk.

“Ninomiya-kun, right?” his mouth hesitated and the boy nodded looking him with a serious expression. “How did you die?” his mind was centred in one thing and it was his death; he needed some type of explanation of why he was there. The boy raised his eyebrows and smiled bitterly.

“I killed myself” he said calmed and Ohno swallowed tensed. “I cut my veins and bled out” Ninomiya watched Ohno’s reaction and he was paler than the ghost.

“Did nobody find you?” he asked more interested. “You look so younger to have lived alone” Ohno tried to know all the ghost would want to say.

“You’re right, I was 17 years old but I was always alone, so it was easy” Ninomiya nodded slowly and giggled because Ohno had an anguished face.

“And... do you regret it?” the boy looked at the man thinking how dared he was. Ninomiya liked brave people so he continued answering.

“At all” because of some reason, Ohno felt a huge desire to cry abruptly and he could know that it was what the boy was feeling in that moment. “Okay, I’m not used to talk so much already, go to sleep, I won’t kill you in the middle of the night” his voice was impregnated of irony. Ohno wanted to reply but the presence vanished leaving no proof about his existence.

He was so disturbed and he was not afraid anymore about a stupid, arrogant ghost. His legs could not almost walk and his entire body felt even sick. This time he could sleep. His eyes were closed and his mind disconnected of the world for many hours. Ohno forget about the ghost, about his story and how he felt while listening it and he could sleep finally.

Meanwhile, a boy was seated in a corner of the room watching the sleeping man. He bit his lower lip worried of something inside his mind. Deep in his heart he was grateful for having someone to talk but in the other hand, how would it be? Maybe all his peace could break in pieces with a strange in his house.

It was a paradox, he had dreamed about someone to talk again for a lot of years but now that he had it, he was afraid. His soul was broke enough to receive more pain. He was broken, he could not trust anyone and Ohno would not be an exception.

It's kinda short but I want to see if you like it or not. (I hope that it'll be yes >.<)
Btw, comments are so welcomed, I love read your opinions ^^

Pairing: Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki; Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari (slightly)
Rating: PG-13
Lenght: one shot (2 parts)

A man in suits was walking through a long hallway belonging to one of the best companies of Japan. His hair perfectly cut and brushed, his face showing his best appearance, a briefcase in his hand which is totally care with his nails brightening, a suit which costed too much money and a pair of black shoes which their sole produced a rhythmic sound against the floor.

He was greeting all the people he saw with a smile and a slight bow. His perfect work allowed him to climb up in the company swiftly in a few years he had stayed there. His boss admired all the achievements he got by working hard and dedicating his life to his job but also to the beginning of a family.
He would get married with a perfect woman, beauty and who worked in other of the most successful companies of the industry, with a rich family and loving for everyone, his family and friends told him that he was the luckiest man of the world.
His life brightened with radiant and a perfect future was waiting for him, he worked so hard to get that and be the perfect son who his parents wished, he wanted that they would be proud of him as long as they lived.

He thought that he was happy like that, being perfect in others’ eyes, being successful in all his duties, being the person who everybody wished to be. But inside him, his heart did not beat with excitement, but only to survive.

Only he knew how he was working and working like a robot no mattering how tired he was; how he was trying to love his fiancée at who met through an omiai prepared by both parents to interconnect their business; how he was forced to smile everyone even if he did not like them or he just did not want; how he was paying the price of living the perfect life.

Nobody could imagine that he was so alone without almost true friends, that he only had 4 friends who did not leave him when he had to quit of the company of entertainment in which he did shows, dances and songs. He wanted to keep in but his parents did not allow him and forced him to join the Keio University.
In consequence, all in the company turned their back on and only 4 boys who quitted after stayed with him understanding his feelings and supporting him in all he did. It was hard to meet them when they lived far away from each other and they had their own job and even a family to take care but they were in contact and met almost one time every month.

Sakurai Sho was so excited this time because he would give them the wedding’s invitations. He hoped that they could go, even if his family couldn’t, he wouldn’t mind as much as if his friends couldn’t come.His hands were squeezing them tightly full of nerves as he waited in front the bridge where they usually went when they were so young. In the distance, he could see the oldest of the 5 of them waving his hand to greet him with a smile in his face happy to meet again.

“Satoshi-kun, nice to see you again!” the man greeted his friend with a hug feeling again that strange happiness which only appeared when he was with them.

“Nice to see you too, Sho-chan!” the 36-years-old man smiled with brightness in his eyes. Soon after, while they were chatting, they saw a cool man walking to them.

“MatsuJun!” both shouted with one voice and he took off his sunglasses and revealed a perfect smile as he greeted them. Satoshi and Jun were always so good friends since they met for first time. Sho could remember how he helped them with their homework.

Little by little, Sho started to feel alive again. How his heart was beating full of excitement and happiness wanting to spend a long day with his friends. By the other path, a 33-years-old man appeared greeting them shouting with his high-pitched voice as always.

“Ohayou, minna!” he grabbed with his both arms the necks of Sho and Jun placing himself between them, his typical smile in his face.

“You’re late! I was waiting for you in the parking” Satoshi complained pouting with his cute face to Kazunari who was looking at him lovely.

“I’m sorry, something happened in the way” Sho just stared at them realizing that nothing had changed in all these years. “Nee, is Aiba late again? I’m going to kick him if he doesn’t appear in five minutes” everyone started to laugh thanks to his complaint. Then, it was when Sho realized how much he wanted to see his best friend again, he felt full by his side because he could be himself without worrying about fulfil the others’ expectations.

Immerse in his thoughts, he did not notice how a tall man wrapped his body with his long arms and put his chin over Sho’s shoulder while their cheeks were touching each other. Sho started to smile and hit his head against his friend’s making him laugh.

“Masaki-kun!” everybody greeted him and he hugged one by one after a long time without seeing them because he had to be out of Tokyo for 4 months working hard to finish his 5^th photo album.Sho just stared at him like if he was seeing the most brilliant star in front of him. It was really fresh to have the 5 of them together again because without Masaki was different.

“Should we go for drinks?” Sho asked them and they accepted being in a good atmosphere. He was very nervous because he had to give them the invitations and he had to tell Masaki that he was going to marry his girlfriend. The rest was told 2 months ago and they asked him to tell Masaki in person, Sho did not understand why but he just accepted.

When they came in a bar seating on a table near a corner to talk relaxed drinking some beers and having fun together again. Sho did not find the chance to tell them so before he could, they talk about how the art school of Satoshi was a success; how Kazunari was directing a film by himself for his first time; how Jun had been father of a cute girl for 2^nd time showing them photos and videos; and how Masaki was on a lot of countries travelling during this 4 months no stopping anytime. Finally, they asked Sho who was trying to find the words to tell Masaki and give the invitations, he was almost sweating because of the nerves but he found his guts to do it.

“Masaki-kun, they already know it but I’ll marry my girlfriend in 2 weeks” for an instant, Aiba’s gaze darkened and his smile disappeared, but he regained his composure quickly.

“That’s so good news! Congratulations!” he patted Sho’s shoulder but inside of him, he felt his touch so cold and forced, his eyes did not bright like always and his voice was lower than before.

“So, I want to give you my wedding’s invitations” 4 letters were emerged from his briefcase and each of them had a name of his friends wrote over the paper. He distributed them to everyone around the table and the letters were opened to reveal a crimson paper with a text wrote in an elegant writing. “I hope you’ll can come because you’re busy lastly” Sho showed his fear and Satoshi and Kazunari accepted immediately. Jun asked him if he could bring his two children and Sakurai nodded wanting to meet the two beautiful creatures who had Jun so busy and happy. Masaki kept his look rereading the letter over and over again not joining the conversation as Sho was worried about his friend.

“I had to confirm it because maybe I will have to travel to Australia” Aiba said powerless but forcing a smile as Sho just nodded wanting to not push him to come even if he was the only who Sho wanted to be there.

Also, his friends did not say anything but they could feel that something was happening between them. Like always, their painful glances appeared, their words disappeared and they started to be distance. Ohno and Nino looked each other not knowing what to do while Jun was trying to start a new conversation talking of his 2 daughters.

Sho was fighting inside of him because a pain was created in his heart when Aiba left his happiness away putting a dark expression if he was feeling the worst person in this world. He wanted to embrace him tightly and ask him what was happening but he became a coward a lot of years ago when he had followed his parents’ instructions.

“Satoshi and I want to say something” Kazunari intervened in the conversation between Sho and Jun. When both looked at them, they could see how the couple had their hands caught, it was strange because they stopped to do that since they left the company and Ohmiya SK disappeared.

“The truth is that we are together for 1 year ago” the 3 exclaimed surprised. The couple could not stop from smiling and they seemed so relieved. “I wanted to tell you as soon as possible but Kazu wanted to wait because maybe our relationship would not last, so I accepted” Satoshi looked to Kazunari with happiness in his eyes and his partner started to flush, which was so rare because Kazunari was always so outgoing and they could see him like that counted times.

“Why wouldn’t your relationship last?” Sho asked interested for some reason and both made a bittersweet smile.

“You know how the society accepts a gay couple… We were so afraid that our families could even hate us. Fortunately, they accepted us perfectly and well, we can see that you too, so thank you guys” they made a slight bow and Sho just nodded realizing that they were able to fight against the fear which was produced for the society’s rejection, thing that he could not do.

Suddenly, a smile was reflected in Aiba’s face and he excused himself to go to toilet as he stood up and left the table. The 4 were worried about his behaviour but no one knew what to do because it was so unusual to see Aiba like that. Something woke up inside of Sho and he told them that he was going to talk to him to find out what was happening to him.He walked to the toilet as a fear hurt his stomach like if something was squeezing it tightly. His arm pushed the door in order to open it and he found a man leaned on the sink with his head looking down.

“Masaki-kun…” Sho called him and he looked up swiftly if he was in a trouble. Their gazes made contact and they realized how their friendship had changed.

“Why are you going to marry that woman?” his words spat from his mouth as his voice sounded broken. Sho was amazed seeing how his best friend was jealous for some reason he could not understand yet.

“Why are you asking me that?” Sakurai started to be disturbed, he did not wanted to hear the mistake he was going to do marrying that woman and even less from Aiba.

“Because you don’t love her. I really don’t know why you are trying so hard to be perfect even when you has a lot of imperfections which I…” Aiba stopped abruptly swallowing scared of talking more than he wanted.

“Which you what? I’m trying nothing, you understand nothing. Why are you like that?” Sho was attempting to hide his furious but it was in vain, this fight was killing him like a knife in his heart. He could see how Aiba was shivering and a tear fell from his right eye.

“Even if you always wanted to please everyone around you, you didn’t do it for others, you did it for yourself, for being accepted for everybody. You are the most selfish person that I could meet” he said in a whisper. Sho wanted to reply, to stop him when Masaki walked by his side to leave the toilet, to tell him the truth but his coward was dominating him, his fears appeared again destroying his mind slowly, like if it was torturing him in a maze from where he could not get out.
Sho was still fighting with himself and with his feelings. He never appraised his best friend in all these years and he realized how he needed him by his side, his smile, his voice telling that everything would be okay; but he was stupid and he lost him because he never took care of Masaki.
In his mind, there were only memories of the 2 of them playing, talking during hours, crying together, hugging each other. Nevertheless one moment was echoing in his head making him to understand Aiba’s feelings for first time.

Sho came out from the toilet and approached the table to see that Masaki was not there and his stuffs either. His 3 friends stared at him asking with their gazes.

“Where is Masaki-kun?” now he only could think in him. He could not try to explain their situation if all was not clear yet.

“He went away. He was crying and I followed him outside to ask what happened, he only shouted me and I froze, I never saw him like that” Ohno told Sho almost disturbed with both for being so stubborn and selfish.

“Sho-chan, he really hated the idea that you could marry a woman you didn’t love someday, try to give him some time to accept it” Ninomiya explained calmed but so worried for his best friend. Ohno noticed it and grabbed his hand tightly. That action annoyed so much Sho with no reason and he flew of his handles.

“I love her, okay? Stop from getting into my life” he almost shouted them and left the bar needing some fresh air. He never hated himself so much until that day but he did not stop of asking himself why he was so disturbed with his friends.

He reached his house regretfully and searched for his keys. When the door was opened, he could hear steps approaching him fast and a woman appeared in front of him. She was beautiful, with long, brown hair, 2 radiant eyes, thin and a bit shorter than him.

“Okaeri, darling!” the woman greeted him with a brilliant smile and Sho just forced one because he did not want to explain her what happened, he did not want to talk her in that moment.

“Tadaima…” he muttered to be polite but he removed his shoes and went to the bedroom wanting to sleep and forget all.

“Nee, darling… Can we have fun tonight…?” the woman seated by his side closer and her hand rubbed his thigh provoked. Sho pulled it aside being so surly.

“I told you that my family is so conservative and I don’t want it after getting married” he just excused himself with a lie like always. “I want to sleep, today was hard” he started to undress and put his pyjamas. The woman apologized and got out from the room as he laid down onto the bed. Every time he closed his eyes, Masaki appeared in front of him crying and shivering. When he got to be sleep, it became a dream and Masaki complained him over and over as he tried to catch his friend no successful.

The days passed and his nightmares did not stop any night. He tried to call him but Masaki just hung up. Then he was calling the others but Ninomiya was so angry with him since the last time that he hung him up too. Ohno talked to him coldly to find a solution but Ohno ended jaded to only hear excuses and he stopped to pick up his calls. Jun was attempting to understand his situation but like Ohno, he only heard excuses over and over so he said him directly that everyone was already tired of him.

Being alone, without a person to call, feeling worse than a shit and wanting to die in that moment, he just went to work being a mess and doing all badly. His boss was worried because it was odd in him and Sho only replied putting the wedding like an excuse. His superior took the decision to give him a week like a holiday to relax until his wedding.

Since then, he did not get out from his room, drinking a lot of alcohol and trying to forget Masaki’s image from his mind. His fiancée was worried for him, she never saw him like that and she decided to help him to stop drinking, take a shower even if she had to clean him and force Sho to eat something.

“C’mon honey, you need to be well for tomorrow” she talked softly to him.

“What happen tomorrow?” he said strangely as he searched in his mind but he was so tired that he gave up.

“Our wedding is tomorrow” she was hurt because he forgot that important date. Suddenly, a fear dag deeply into his heart and he needed his friends rather than never.

“Do you matter if I spend the night out? I have to do something so important” he stood up and looked into her brown eyes, she denied smiling and he kissed his cheek softly. “Thank you” he ran out from the room and took a shower to remove alcohol odor from his body.

He got into the car and started to drive in the middle of the night setting aside his coward for the first time in his life. His mind was racing with fears to control, feelings to put in order and words to tell as he decided to stop from being an asshole and try to fix his mistakes instead of making excuses. He could control his life finally and something was born inside of him.

He reached a block of apartments and he remembered which was the correct to ring the bell. His fears increased and he found himself asking why he was doing that. His reply was simple: I need someone.

His finger pushed the bell and he could hear a sound echoing the apartment. He waited impatiently if the time was passing so slowly. A click was produced and the door was opened to let appear a tall, thin man.

“Sho” the man called his name being so surprise and Sakurai forced himself to talk even if it was a whisper.

“I want to talk with you” his voice trembled but it came out louder enough to be heard.

“We have nothing to talk” the man went to close the door but Sho impeded it with his hands opening it full and hugging the man tightly around his neck.

“Masaki, I need you” he whispered with a knot in his throat. His eyes were crying but he did not realize it, he was only waiting his answer. Masaki was in shock but he became so weak that his arms wrapped around Sho’s waist.

“Why do you do that to me?” Masaki asked painfully feeling his heart breaking in pieces. “Your wedding is tomorrow…” he was so lost in Sho’s hug that he forgot his anger and hugged him tighter.

“Forget that. I want to spend the last night with you, like that time when we…” he was too flushed that he could not continue talking. Having asked him for a night was the craziest thing he had done in his life but it felt so good and relieved.

“What? Sho-chan, you smell like alcohol, come inside and drink water first” Masaki did not believe him because his odor but Sho was serious in his decision.

Meanwhile, both walked in the apartment and seated in the living room. Masaki brought a glass of water and gave it to Sho. “Drink” Sho drank a bit and left the glass on the table but Masaki was not satisfied. “All” Sho rolled his eyes and he drank all the water of the glass to please his friend. Aiba seated by his side no knowing what to say having forgotten his proposition.

“I was serious about spend the night together” Sho glanced him quickly to discover Aiba looking the floor between his legs.

“And you are drunk. We can’t repeat it. In that time we were young and curious, we just experimented together” his voice was bittersweet remembering how good it felt. Sho gave him a point, he was drunk but he was feeling free for first time.

“Then take it like another experiment” Sho approached Masaki wanting to place himself over him but the man just got apart suffering more than Sho thought.
“You should stop; your wedding is tomorrow…” he said but Sho approached him again no allowing him to scape and forced him to lay onto the floor as he put over him.

“Fuck the wedding. Now I only care about you” Sakurai’s lips touched his as Masaki wrapped his arms around his neck feeling so powerless to try to stop him. Both separated and the thin man denied almost laughing.

“What happens here today, it will be a mistake tomorrow, won’t it?” his words came slowly and painfully from his mouth which just kissed Sho.

“I’m sorry…” Sho hated himself a bit more when he realized that he could not cancel his wedding already. He would betray his fiancée and he would hurt his friend. He really was so selfish like Aiba said. Masaki just denied with his head and being selfish too, he kissed him hardly to continue what Sho asked.

I really loved writting it. So I hope that you'll like too ^^
It's only one part of it, but I'm not going to make it so long.
Comments to know what you think of it would be so great!
Thank you for reading >~<

Current Mood: Tired XD
Current Location: In the sofa owo
Current Music: None

"Can we go to your room? I want to talk to you"

Ninomiya accepted a little surprised and both went to his room. The painter felt nervous about he was going to do, but his mind had token the decision to make a step forwards in their supposed game which was deeper than they thought. He had met a lot of boys disposed to do whatever he asked, but he felt empty with such people, everyone but Ninomiya.

Ohno closed the door slowly and stared at his roommate. The entire boy’s body was calling him to admire and prove it; his desire was controlling his mind to not let him thinking coldly.
He approached him as Ninomiya stepped backwards until he reached the desk, his brown eyes with nerves and excitement biting his lower lip as Ohno rubbed a hand on his tummy over the T-shirt. Ninomiya shivered when he sensed his hand breathing deeper. It was hard to admit for the gamer; he thought he was straight and he wouldn’t ever like the touch of a man, nevertheless, Ohno drove him crazy only with his gaze and his little touches.

His irrational part was pushing him to make Ninomiya his while his rational part was telling him that it was so soon for both. Then, the boy did a gasp when Ohno’s hand was so down and the painter couldn’t wait more starting to kiss him hardly without hearing his complaints or noticing his arms pushing him away. Ohno's hand caught his hips strongly to get their bodies closely and then, two arms wrapped around his neck. He seated Ninomiya over the desk and opened his legs to place himself between them. Ohno began to bite all his neck as Ninomiya tried to clean his mind up.

"Nee, Ohno-san, don't you want to talk with me?" he gasped almost in a whisper to not moan. The oldest remembered why he searched for him to talk and swallowed while his nerves came again.

"Yeah, this… what we are doing right now… it's a play for you, isn't it?" Ohno rested his forehead on Ninomiya's shoulder feeling a strange pain in his heart because he couldn’t ask him what he really wanted.

"Yeah... It's only a game..." the boy said disappointed as the pain increased in Ohno's heart. His hands stopped forgetting his opportunity for a moment until the boy reminded it to him. "Nee, touch me more" he begged to his roommate kissing his neck and hugging him stronger realizing how strange Ohno was being.

The painter took the decision to forget the pain staying with him even if it was only a simple game and give Ninomiya what he wanted. Ohno slipped his hands under the gamer's T-shirt undressing him as Ninomiya tried to undress his roommate too while he was embarrassed.

Both were half naked rubbing their bodies as they kissed hardly feeling something totally different as always. Ohno held him when the gamer wrapped around him with his legs as well. They 2 were placed on the bed, the painter over the boy. Ohno stared at him stopping for a moment.

"I thought that you would hate me" his hand rubbed Ninomiya's cheek as the oldest felt relieved. His biggest fear was that the boy would reject him because he liked men and he wouldn’t ever talk to him.

"I like our… game" he tried to fake a smile remembering his own words as he approached his mouth to Ohno's but he impeded it to talk in order to erase his doubts.

"Do you want to continue?" his voice reflected nerves and insecurity. Ninomiya nodded with fear in his eyes. Ohno just saw himself reflected in his eyes when his first time was taking place. "Is this your first time?"

"I'm virgin, yes..." he flushed because he was so honest. Ohno smiled lovely. "And you?" he tried to divert the conversation.

"With men yes..." without more hesitations, his lips touched Ninomiya's skin sucking and biting it as the boy rubbed his hands over his back scratching his nails a little because the pleasure he was experimenting for first time.
Ohno began to get down at his nipples which were hard caused by the painter's touches. Ninomiya was gasping lowly feeling melt inside wanting more and more. Neither wanted to stop nor separate from each other, neither wanted a game between them but anyone said it either.

The touches, kisses and gasps weren’t enough to calm their necessities. Both pants started to bother them because their half erections so Ohno decided to stand up and unbutton Ninomiya's pants removing his underwear too. He looked at his roommate from top to bottom seeing how hard he was already and realizing how he needed to be inside of him. His eyes were brightening with expectation as he thought he could eyaculate only seeing him being naked, hard and flushed in front of him, it was the best view of his life and it was sure he couldn’t forget it.

"Can you stop of looking me?" he flushed a lot suddenly and Ohno just smiled and undressed himself totally getting free his hard member. Ninomiya was surprised and he tried to avoid it with his gaze by looking at Ohno's face with desire. Also, his mind was like a mess by thinking why looking at his member was so erotic, so much that his eyes wanted to betray him sometimes.

The painter placed himself over him again as his bodies rubbed slightly. The two hard members touched each other and Ninomiya shivered a little feeling a never-felt-before sense as Ohno gasped controlling himself to not be abrupt. The oldest leaned on his forearms to kiss him as Ninomiya got down a hand rubbing his fingers through Ohno's belly. He caught both members together and started to pump them up and down. Their moans echoed the room as Ohno wrapped his hand to stop him and shrunk his legs to open them. A few moments passed as Ohno's mind thought that he had the most beautiful creature in the world in front of him and how lucky he was feeling.

"Nee, don't look at me like that..." he complained again and the oldest rubbed his roommate's member slowly watching how he moaned with his closed eyes and his half opened mouth, his back arched and he could see how he trembled a little. “Don’t torture me like that and penetrate me now” he desired between moan and moan being difficult to talk for him. Ohno stopped a moan in his throat and looked at both sides searching something.

"I'm sorry but I haven't got lube" Ohno wanted to be inside of him, but the desire of not making him hurt was more strong. Ninomiya refused to accept it and seduced him to convince that it wasn’t needed.

"It doesn't matter, I want you" the gamer gasped trying to continue, nevertheless Ohno knew how it would hurt, but accepted to show him how it would be without lube. He sucked two fingers and then made circles on the hole of Ninomiya. Slowly, he pushed one inside as the gamer moaned loudly. The finger came in and out several times so other finger came in too scissoring the hole to cause him the least hurt possible. The third was put in and Ohno noticed how tense Ninomiya was because of the pain.

"I warned you, now try to relax" he whispered kissing him on his chest.

"How am I supposed I have to relax?" the gamer giggled looking at Ohno amused. His giggle made him to remember a solution for their problem and he had to see if it could work. His roommate left the hole to kiss him as they embraced each other.

"I have an idea, can you wait for me here?" his forehead was pressed against Ninomiya's rubbing their noses. He just nodded melting inside caused by his show of affection.

Ohno stoop up quickly and dressed his pants to get out of the room closing the door. In the few minutes he delayed, Ninomiya thought in what he felt for him as he shrunk himself. He asked himself why he was allowing a stranger take away his virginity. It was clear that he was letting himself go without think it coldly, but no one person ever treat him like that before and he had a sense of belonging for the first time in his life even if it was a game for Ohno. He produced inside him strange senses that he really liked. The boy looked down and he saw an example: his hard erection which he had never had before.

"This is in what sex consists, isn't it?" he thought out loud. His thumb rubbed the tip and he shivered with pleasure. "Maybe he likes it too..." he was locked in his world but Ohno made him return when he opened the door and came in. Ninomiya stared at a bottle which Ohno held in his hand. "What is that?" he asked him innocently with a low voice wanting to have him closely.

"It's what we need" he smiled and he removed his pants again to kneel over the bed and touch the gamer's lips against his. Ninomiya was surprised and he wrapped his arms around his neck to lie down together. Ohno caught the bottle and spreaded the lube on his fingers repeating the process but this time making his roommate enjoyed it completely.

"I like it, Ohno-san..." he moaned lowly as the painter watched thoughtful at the boy in front of him, totally helpless, with his legs opened showing his erection, both arms overhead grabbing the sheets strongly and moaning his name.

"Just say me Satoshi" he put out his fingers and spreaded on his member with more lube rubbing it a little. "This can be painful, hold me tight" his roommate did what Ohno told him and Ninomiya embraced him doing a little of strength to shorten the distance between his bodies and mouths. The tip was placed at the entrance and he penetrated him with one gentle thrust. Ninomiya wanted to shout but Ohno did not allow him kissing him. "Hold me tight, don't forget it" he said controlling all he was feeling in that moment as the gamer made more force around his neck.

"I want more..." he wished and Ohno started to thrust slowly but in symphony with his roommate. The pain inside Ninomiya was difficult to handle and his shouts were covered by Ohno's mouth to not wake up the others. The shouts became moans of pleasure when Ohno reached the spot and he could increase the speed. The painter hadn't felt this before, the perfect synchrony, they seemed made for each other, like a puzzle of million pieces in which he found his couple.

"S-Satoshi..." his voice trembled reaching his limit. Ohno loved how it echoed his ears and the room, how his name sounded from a moan made by his mouth.

Ohno's thrusts were harder and Ninomiya ran over his stomach as his moans were so loud. The oldest couldn’t handle with his pleasure inside him killing his little reason that he had as he ran too inside him a few thrusts after. He stopped and got out from his hole asking him for his condition, but he just found a tired boy who only embraced him seeking heat with closed eyes.

One of Ninomiya's cheek was rubbed by a hand of the painter as he left a kiss over his dry lips. "Can I call you Kazunari?" Ninomiya nodded slowly no hiding his smile. "That's good" he allowed him to sleep while he cleaned both members and his stomach with a tissue. After that, he laid down by his side holding him between his arms strongly. “Someday you will know how I like you…”he whispered to the already sleepy boy with a bittersweet voice.

I love how it ended after a lot of corrections and reviews XD
I hope you like too, it was hard to write ^^

Current Mood: Tired -.-
Current Location: In my bed ^^
Current Music: Pierce ~ One Ok Rock

Aiba came back to the kitchen pale and seated in one chair beside Sakurai. His roommate just looked at him asking what happened there. He hesitated to tell him but finally he opted to narrate him the scene. Sakurai almost spat his cereals as Aiba giggled a little.

"You are lying, right?" Sakurai put a hand on Aiba's shoulder and Aiba denied exaggeratedly. He started to explain it if Ohno and Ninomiya were his fingers but Sakurai did not understand his special explanations.

"When I opened the door, woh! They are like chuuu and then fuuu..." Sakurai asked him to stop but Aiba wanted that he could understand what he saw. Then, he stood up and grabbed Sakurai's arm to pull him up. Aiba placed him against the table and he approached too much, their bodies almost touching completely. He did not think about the situation and he was normal, but Sakurai was very surprised and tensed because he was afraid that Aiba noticed his heart beating so fast. Both were looking each other into their eyes, both could feel that strange connection which attract them. Sakurai tried to think coldly repeating himself his own words «How can I like someone who I met a day ago?» but his mouth betrayed him.

"And what were they doing?" he said in a whisper with a deep voice full of embarrassed, but at the same time, full of excitement as well.
Aiba only shrugged with his mind as a mess.

"I don't know, it seemed so pervert" he got away being normal and he seated again to finish his breakfast. His roommate sighed painfully and picked his into the sink.
They talked for a while and Matsumoto joined them after of taking a shower. Ohno was in the kitchen too eating his breakfast silently as Aiba was looking at him sometimes. Then, Nino came in and seated beside Ohno. Both were acting normally and there was not tension between them but Aiba could not relax himself not knowing the truth. Sakurai noticed a red mark in Nino's collarbone and nudged Aiba to whisper him in the ear.

"Look Nino's collarbone" their movements were so evidents and everybody noticed them. Nino saw the boys watching him while they talked into whispers and Ohno just raised a eyebrow as Matsumoto was so amused without knowing anything.

"Can you tell me what's wrong with me? You are bothering me" Nino spat them suddenly tired of their "play". He was still eating his breakfast but he looked up staring at them.

"We're sorry, it just... You have a red mark in your collarbone..." Sakurai said as polite as he could. Aiba stroke hardly Sakurai's arm making him a little hurt. Nino was trying to not show his panic looking down and covering it with a hand.

"It's a scratch, don't mind" he swallowed and Ohno stood up to put his plate in the sink being so amused because it was his fault.
Matsumoto was suspicious about the situation and left the kitchen waiting for how it would progress. Aiba and Sakurai left too to pick their books to go class as they shared their theories. Being alone again on the kitchen, Ohno approached Nino to embrace him from the back and kiss him in the cheek. He said "I'm sorry" in a low voice and Nino suppressed a smiled when he realized his happiness inside himself.
Meanwhile, Matsumoto went to the kitchen because he forgot his laptop on the table but he stopped himself behind the threshold when he saw Ohno embracing Nino. He hid himself and Ohno figured him out as he got out from the room. The painter just stared at him a few seconds and passed by his side. Matsumoto looked inside the kitchen again to find Nino smiling into his own thoughts and he took the decision to talk to Ohno. The boy ran behind Ohno and wrapped his arm.

"What happen between you and Ninomiya-san?" the grip disappeared as Ohno turned to look him confused. "Are you a couple?" Ohno laughed bittersweetly.

"We just play a game" he continued his path to go class. Matsumoto followed him wanting to know more.

"What kind of game do you play to make someone smile like Ninomiya-kun did it in the kitchen?" Ohno's mind blocked itself for a moment being hesitantly. Matsumoto thought that he hit the spot but he was not sure.

"You forget the honorifics quickly, don't you?" Ohno avoided Ninomiya's affair naturally but Matsumoto was not a fool. "He knows that it's a game, you should think that maybe he was smiling for other thing he remembered" the curious boy did not give up about discovering their supposed game as he stayed by his side talking about different stuffs while they reached their class.

The first day was chaotic going from here to there meeting professors, classmates, getting used to the ambient. Each one of them ate in different places and hours, they were starting to study or getting organized on the library, on class or on garden. They 5 were so tired when they met in the living room several hours after. Matsumoto, Ohno and Sakurai were playing with cards on the table sitting on the floor. Aiba and Ninomiya were playing with the Nintendo on the sofa. Like that, they had the dinner and clean the kitchen together again. They boys said good night each other and came in each room.

After 10 minutes, Ohno walked through the hallway and he found Ninomiya.

"Can we go to your room? I want to talk to you"

I hope that it isn't so boring but I want to conect some stuffs before. A little Sakuraiba and Ohmiya to read better >.<
Thanks for reading!

"Ohno-san?!"

"Shh, you will wake the rest up. I made a mistake, sorry. Sleep again" Ohno whispered with his sweet voice trying to leave.

"Ohno-san" Ninomiya called him loudly enough to stop his roommate. "Can you stay with me a little?" Ohno surprised as he clarified. "I can't sleep" Ohno nodded, closed the door and turned on a little light. He approached his bed and seated waiting some hint. "Where were you? We were waiting for you to have dinner" Nino seated totally on the bed and covered himself with the sheets a little bit embarrased.

"I was painting in the garden and I didn't notice the hour, sorry" he smiled apologized. Ninomiya tried to initiate a conversation asking him about paint. Ohno talked so enthusiastic about that theme and Ninomiya thought that that time was the first in which he spoke for so long. The painter asked him about his hobbies and Ninomiya began to speak about video games. The gamer showed him a few games and his achievements on his Nintendo as Ohno watched it impressed.

The 2 boys had fun talking each other and giggling lowly because the others could hear them. Ohno had laid onto the bed to be more comfortable and Nino was by his side lying down too.
When they stopped to talk a little, Ninomiya saw his clock which was on the nightstand and he noticed the hour, it was 3:28 am in the night. He was surprised because they had been talking for almost 2 hours without realizing it. The gamer wanted to notify Ohno about the hour but he was sleeping like a baby.

"If you were tired, why didn't you go to your bedroom before?" Ninomiya reproached him in a whisper trying to cover him with a sheet so he did not catch a cold. He was lying down on one side to watch Ohno sleeping peacefully. The boy was still awake but slowly he closed his eyes full of tiredness falling in a sweet dream.

Next morning, Ohno opened his eyes disoriented as he discovered Ninomiya by his side almost hugging him sleepy. He coughed cannot stopping it in his throat and Ninomiya woke up lazily. When the gamer noticed how he was regarding Ohno, he got away quickly feeling himself so ashamed.

"Why did you do that? Now, I'm cold" his voice was deeper than usually and Ohno approached him passing a hand through his waist under the sheets. Ninomiya began to be nervous as he could not look at Ohno into his chocolate eyes. His hand slipped inside his T-shirt and rubbed his softly skin.

"Ohno-san... I think..." Ninomiya's forearms rested on Ohno's chest pushing him away feeling himself powerless. He knew that he could stand up and break their contact but something inside him impeded it.

Ohno approached more as Ninomiya though that he would kiss him but the painter went to his neck biting it seductively. Both bodies touched each other and Ohno bit harder making a little mark on his collarbone as he was placed over Ninomiya. His hand went up for his abdominals touching them with his finger tips. Ninomiya started to breathe heavily not knowing what to do.

"Ohno-san, can you stop...?" he almost gasped trying hard to control himself. His roommate did not heed what he said and continued touching and provocating the gamer. "Ohno-san, you should stop..." he started to get mad squirming under him. "Fuck Ohno, stop!" he shouted and then is when Ohno got up his head to look him amazed. Ninomiya pushed him away strongly and Ohno let himself roll on the bed. He seated as he grabbed Ninomiya's arm when he stood up to get out.

"I'm sorry, I think that I surpassed the limits" the boy just pulled off the grip angrily breathing irregularly.

"Don't touch me more" he spat staring at him harshly. Ohno felt a knot in his stomach as he realized that his play went too far.

"Why are you so angry? I just made a mistake, I'm sorry, what more do you want?" he flew off his handle, Ohno did not know why but Ninomiya's reaction was painful.

Unlike Ohno, the boy was trying to calm himself, it wasn't easy to do with a hard look staring at him and less when Ohno stood up in front of him.

"Wouldn't you be angry with me if I had did it?" he wanted more space between them to talk more determined.

"No" Ninomiya could not believe him. "If you want to check that I'm saying the truth, then kiss me" his sleepy eyes blinked slowly challenging his roommate. The gamer only denied with his head and bit his lower lip. "It would be like settle up" his eyebrows raised with expectation.

"Okay but only for settle up" he accepted hesitantly and approached Ohno taking him from his T-shirt to put together their bodies. Their mouths were so close and both could feel each other's breath. Ninomiya closed his eyes and suddenly he touched two soft lips. Instead of draw away, he kept himself kissing Ohno and the painter took advantage of it by sliding his hands in Ninomiya's hips. Ohno pushed his roommate backwards until they reached his desk as he started to kiss him harder.

"It was only a kiss" Ninomiya gasped sucking one of Ohno's lips.

"“It was”. Now, do you understand me?" Ninomiya nodded. Ohno was willing to do all with him, he was sweet, sexy and attractive enough to turn him on. He was half hard and he could feel how Ninomiya was beginning too.
Suddenly, someone knocked the door. Both separated from each other swiftly and Aiba came in. The boy wasn't so innocent to not know what was happening between them.

"Ohno-san, what...? Oh, I'm sorry! I... Well... Never mind" he closed the door accurately and the two inside the room started to laugh.

"We should get out, this was just to settle up, right?" Ohno's feelings were hidden behind their fake deal. Ninomiya nodded as he felt disappointment.
Ohno opened the door to left the room and the undecided boy. The gamer just smiled with a bittersweet taste and made the same path to outside.

Well, a little drama isn't so bad, nee? I hope you like this Ohmiya chapter. I don't want to put anyone aside but maybe these chapters I will write more about Ohmiya, there will be Sakuraiba be patient xD

Aiba, Matsumoto and Sakurai went to the snack bar so Aiba could bought his strawberry ice cream. Aiba ordered it and waited impatiently like a child. The rest was in a table discussing their affairs. The alone boy watched them as he thought he wished to have a friend to talk and get out but here he did not know anyone. Aiba took the decision to be their friend, they seemed nice. He approached them.

"Thank you, guys!" he was grateful because they went with him creating a nice atmosphere chatting and laughing.

Aiba began to eat it and Sakurai stared at him as Matsumoto noticed the scene giggling lowly. Aiba looked at him and Sakurai figuring him out.

"Do you want ice cream?" he approached it to Sakurai innocently. He nodded as he caught it with one hand but Aiba did not drop it so both hands touched making Sakurai nervous, nevertheless he ate a bit to taste it. Matsumoto with his arms crossed was watching 2 brats flirting as they did not realize it.

"Oh c'mon, don't eat the ice cream, eat him" Matsumoto shouted it to them as Sakurai wanted to punch him hardly. Aiba's wide-open eyes were trying to avoid the situation. He did not understand why he was so nervous but Aiba decided to go to the apartment again and relaxed a bit. He almost ran outside and Sakurai took advantage of it to punch Matsumoto hard in his arm.

"Why did you say that?!" he was really angry and ashamed.

"It's like Ohno-san and Ninomiya-san, the chemistry between you is more than clear. Do you like him?" Matsumoto asked his friend tempted to know the truth about the story.

"How can I like someone who I met a few hours ago?" he closed his eyes disturbed and Matsumoto rubbed his chin. He had reason.

Meanwhile, Aiba walked the path to his apartment no eating his ice cream. "It would be like kissing Sakurai-san indirectly, wouldn't it?" his thoughts stormed him out. It would seem stupid but he had a dilemma, so he made his step faster to reach his new home as soon as posible.
When he came in, he found Ninomiya playing with a Nintendo on the sofa. He greeted him and seated by his side.

"Did something bad happen?" the player asked as he did not stop to push the buttons frenetically. Aiba hesitated to reply but inside of him, something was telling him that maybe he could help to disappear his disturbed thoughts.

"Well, if someone eat from your ice cream, does it mean that he kiss you indirectly?" Aiba stared at the ice cream which it began to melt.

"Who ate from your ice cream?" Ninomiya was talking as with a child.

"Sakurai-san. He was looking at the ice cream and I offered him a little but then Matsumoto-san said him "don't eat the ice cream, eat him" and I really don't know what it means" his thoughts were exposed freely feeling more relieved. Then, Ninomiya stopped the play and looked him impacted. "Don't look at me like that, what does it mean?" Aiba's innocence was so pure yet that Ninomiya did not know how to explain it.

"Well... When two people like each other, they make things..." Aiba seemed lost. "To make love. That is what he meant" he said abruptly getting tired of his roommate. Aiba got wide his eyes as he covered his opened mouth.

"Make love with a man?!" he sounded so confused. Ninomiya watched him thinking in his own personal affairs. He restarted his play and hid a smile caused by his roommate's reaction.

"Man, don't be like that, those are typical jokes on the first day" Ninomiya told him sincerely trying this time to help him seriously. Aiba just sighed and closed his eyes resigned. Suddenly, Aiba asked Ninomiya if he had been in love before. The gamer denied with his head. "Even if I was, I never showed it".

Aiba began to ask him a lot of questions about that but he did not answer and he tried to avoid the situation with humor. They ended telling each other stories, knowing a little more about their life.

An hour passed and two boys came in the living room. Sakurai avoided to look Aiba and Matsumoto apologized to him for what he said previously. Aiba didn't care about that anymore and smiled to his roommate.
The 4 of them already wanted to have dinner but they wondered where Ohno was. The group waited a little for him but Ohno did not appear so they started to cook in their way and had a delicious dinner chatting friendly and trying to get along well. A good ambient was created as they cooperated to clean the kitchen after used it. Everyone was agree to go to sleep early and they went to each room.

Two hours later, Ninomiya could not sleep as he spined around in his bed. His senses woke him up when he heard his door open.
As he looked who walked in, a boy stopped in the middle of the room staring at him. With the darkness, Ninomiya did not see him crearly until he turned around to get out and the light which was entering from the door illuminated his face.

"Ohno-san?!"

I hope you liked this Aimiya moment ♡
Thanks for reading!

Profile

Tomo-kun

August 2017

M	T	W	T	F	S	S
	1	2	3	4	5	6
7	8	9	10	11	12	13
14	15	16	17	18	19	20
21	22	23	24	25	26	27
28	29	30	31

Dreamland

~We're like an old married couple~

Entries tagged with ohno satoshi/ninomiya kazunari

And... Do You Regret It? [FINAL]

And... do you regret it? [Fic 4/?]

And... do you regret it? [Fic 3/?]

And... do you regret it? [Fic 2/?]

And... do you regret it? [Fic 1/?]

No One Should Know [1]

The University [6]

The University [5]

The University [4]

The University [3]

Profile

August 2017

Most Popular Tags

Page Summary